The Coquet of Life

2009-03-02T11:30:00.000+08:00

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2009-02-05T14:44:00.002+08:00

Have you ever wanted something so bad that you'd do almost anything for it ?
I have. And currently, the thing that I want most is to go to Parsons to study. It somehow seems that the world is against me for this.
Initially I was going to apply for spring 09(November) but they dont' offer foundation thn, and if you'd have to have 12 foundation credits if you want to...and in Malaysia to get 12 foundation credits in less thn a year it's kinda...impossible.
And I cant apply for Fall 09 (feb) because I don't have my spm results and I didn't have enough time to do a portfolio. Having spm kinda kills your inspiration.
So now all I'm left is applying for the Fall 10 (next year feb) application.
And it's not guaranteed that Im going to get in.
So If i do that, it's really a big risk. :
Now, another reason why parsons seems crazy, it's 5 yearss, one year being foundation obviously.
So, the fee's for parsons per year is about $50, 000
Which is about RM120, 000 ++per year
which becomes a total offff
RM120,000++ * 5 = RM600, 000++
And that's enough to do veterinary!
which I think is a little overpriced for arts school but I guess being the best arts school with a history of celebrity alumni...it's okay?
gahh
Idontknowanymore ):

2009-01-19T01:20:00.002+08:00

Rules: take your answer to the question, and type it into urban dictionary, then post a definition for your answer.
Enjoy!!
www.urbandictionary.com
anyone who does this, pls write a note on tagboard, i'd love to know your answers (:

1.)Your name?
Honey

a hot mama, a girl who has everything. The looks, brains and has an aura- a girl who makes your heart race
"wow, she's gonna be a honey when she gets older"

2.)One of your friends?
Ivan

He is the sexiest man alive and really sweet and so fuking attractive!!!
totally fukable

3.)What should you be doing?
Sleeping

When u close your eyes and think of perverted things, which will never actually happen.
The man woke up from his sleep and realized that there werent seven women surrounding him.

4.)Favorite color?
Green

1) Marijuana 2) Money 3) the horny color 4) envious 5) the color
1) let's go smoke some green 2) look at the green of my bills 3) jane is wearing green.. she's horny! 4) bobby is green with envy. 5) grass is the color green!

5.)Birthplace?
Penang

One of the great mysteries of life, penang is the predominant (or soon to be predominant) term for a vagina. You know, a pussy. A meat taco. Poonany. Fill in what slang you will; it won't feel as satisfying as using "penang". Penang is more than just an anatomical fact. It is a way of life. Loved by almost all men on earth (and statistically 3 out of every 10 women), It has spawned books, plays, music, not to mention the entirety of creation. Seriously, penang is more accomplished than Martha Stewart post-indictment. Used most frequently in concert with the ever popular boba, when referring to other equally awesome parts of the female anatomy. May also be used as an expletive, but this should only occur when all other words fail to suffice in expressing your anger/shock/amazement/joy.
"My penang itches." "Why won't anyone love my penang?" "Daammn, will you look at the bobas on that girl! I'd like to rock her penang." Really, the possibilities are endless.

6.)Month of birth?
June

The month the hottest people in the world are born.
DAMN! i'm hot i was born in june!

8.) Last person you talked to?
Calvin

Also known as the Calvinator, this male is a good example of a hard-working overachiever. Past times include: tennis, girls, tennis, and girls.
Boy: I want to be a Calvin! Other boy: You shall never be like Calvin! There is only one! He is t3h pwn!

2009-01-17T01:18:00.003+08:00

If I should die this very moment, I wouldn't fear, for I've never known completeness...

~moulin rouge

I Think
Sometimes I feel there's a hole inside me; an emptiness that at times seems to burn...it cant go away...and it wont. It's here to stay. To rip open; to tear further and more severe every time i get hurt. To remind me that I am but only human...

2009-01-15T02:14:00.002+08:00

I can't believe that even in this modern day we are still facing discrimination. I really thought that hey maybe, just MAYBE that phase of the human race was over, that MAYBE we could all look at each other not as Indians, Malays, mamaks, Chinese, Muslim, christian and Hindu but as human beings. If you think about it, what makes you better than me? So you're tan and I'm fair- does that mean you're better? Or maybe you came across a fair person who was a fucking bitch from hell, does that mean that I am of the same kind? that I am a fucking bitch from hell? NO, because we are all individuals. We are each our own person with thoughts, rights and opinions. WHO THE HELL ARE YOU TO THINK ANY LESSER OF ME? Think about it, I have a heart, you have a heart. Cut me with a knife i bleed, stab you- you bleed! BIG SURPRISE. and if you're gonna discriminate the blood that flows in my veins, before you do, Its RED. the exact same colour of yours. I don't believe in god. I don't believe in faith. I don't think god exists because there's so much pain and suffering in the world which is really not needed- innocent children esp. People who don't deserve it. There is no god. There is only man. man who have made this world like this. and if there's this phony-baloney god la, why create religion ? why create colour? why create difference being the all-knowing-being that it would separate people when it is meant to unite! Why not make us all blue! hell, why even create gender! We could all just breed like unicellular organisms! I'm sorry if I offended anyone esp those who believe in God, please don't hate me- that's just my view. It's a touchy issue, I know. that's why i rarely bring it up.

I have been an object of discrimination left right and centre. It sometimes hurts so badly. I doubt many of you would understand. Being disliked just because someone assumed you Malay ( WHICH I AM FUCKING NOT! ) or someone thinks you're Indian. My mom told me when she was a kid she had no friends because she was mixed. She was neither a Chinese, an Indian or a Malay. Discrimination starts at home. If your parents do it, most likely you will too. What haven't I gone through, racial discrimination, gender discrimination AND religious discrimination. It's a very bad feeling being discriminated. You feel dirty. You feel disgusting. You feel worthless. You wonder what's wrong with you? but in reality that's not the right question, it's what's wrong with them. I understand if people want you to stay away from Indians because their supposedly "gangsters" or Malays because they'll "convert you" or Christians "because they believe in Christ". The reasons get more and more absurd. but it's their mindset, You cant blame them, but when is it going to stop? WHEN IS IT GOING TO STOP. it's not like everyone who's Indian is a gangster or chinks are all lala's. COMMON. I really hate this. I really hate this. Words cant even explain how much this irks me, TOTALLY PISSES ME OFF! to everyone who has ever discriminated, FUCK YOU, CHANGE YOUR MINDSET, GROW UP. If you want to hate someone, hate the whole fucking world- seriously. I am not a Malay, I am not a Chinese, I am not a christian, I am neither a man nor a woman, I am a human, respect me for who I am and not what i am supposed to be based on my gender, colour or religion. It is very simple. My religion is kindness. My race is equality. and my gender is insignificant.

Why do we seem destined to define ourselves with labels? Labels are mere words. If we want others to know what we are, why not show them? Show them through action. Actions still speak louder than words. I do not care if you are a Buddhist, a Muslim, a White, a Christian, a Hindu, a Black, a Jew, a follower of any countless other faiths, traditions, paths, colour, race or religions that are spread throughout this World.We are all one. One human family, one world, one universe. As the Dalai Lama says it, "All human beings come from a mother's womb. We are all the same part of one human family. We should have a clear realization of the oneness of all humanity." Only when we understand this, there would be no racism or religious discrimination or sexual discrimination.

2009-01-11T16:26:00.003+08:00

Ive been doing alot of manips lately- it's really fun to do.

Anywyas I've been kind of twiddling over the thought of changhing my blogskin but I cant seem to fine any that I like so far, so I was thinking until I made my own, if Ichanged the image on the top it'd look better? or fresh ?

Well, here's the picture in mind.
le original

Le picture edite

Comments in the cbox much appreciated cz im two minds abt it. I cant decide.

Ps: and no it's not emo, and im not trying to be emo, i just got an idea to theme my blog "in silence I shall speak"

2008-12-30T22:08:00.002+08:00

Wow, isn't it scary how time flies? It's new years eve. 2008 is ending. Everything that ended with an 08 will never repeat itself and will go into the halls of memories. Memories. Ah. How I wish we could remember everything exactly the way it was. Remembering every day, every touch, every scent and every colour. Picturing everything the exact way it was but alas that wasn't a gift given to us. But triggers can awaken those memories and we'll smile as we look back upon time- a melancholic smile. A smile that will bring back the bittersweet moments that have come and gone. It makes me think that as of this moment writing this, next year when I'm writing another one for the end of 09 I wont remember the exact way I'm feeling now. So much has happened this year... I finally have relief. I finally can breathe. Another volume in the Saga of Haneesha's life has been closed and now lies on the shelves of time (how's that for artistic?) and my new book starts on January 1 2009. I think somehow this year went by too fast. Feels like only yesterday I was walking into the Sri Pinang hall not knowing what to expect. I somehow rather think I missed out a lot because I was mostly home. I didn't soak up the year 2008. But I guess in a way because of that I found myself. I found who I am. I found me. I found Haneesha. I don't have to look in the mirror anymore and wonder why am i here? what's my purpose? who am I? I don't just see a blur, I see a real person- passionate, kind, smilish and, dare i say this, confident. I learnt that I don't need people to be happy and I'm perfectly fine being alone in deep thought. I don't give a shit about what people think of me and I really don't care because your opinion of me couldn't matter less to me. I found friends who don't think I'm a rich-arrogant-little-prat-who-shows-off-all-the-time-because-she-always-gets-what-she-wants-anyways and people who aren't gonna use me and befriend me because of me. My beloveds. I realised that if I fall I fall with grace. I am a ballerina, dancing on the stage of life. If I stumble, I get back up and pick up where I left of and dancing along to the beat. I don't need to change to be accepted by anyone, people need to change their perception on me. I can't please anyone and I don't intend to. I love myself- deal with it. I realised that you can't please everyone and someone out there is gonna hate you for no apparent reason and YES it will hurt and will stay on like a scar that can never heal but you learn to live with it. I realised that just because someone goes to an expensive school it doesn't mean that they're more mature. I learnt to let go, I learnt to forgive. I learnt that it's okay to be left out, it's fine to be the minority. I learnt that... this is me.

Reflections of me

I close my eyes

I see

How truly

I am meant to me

I cry a tear

A tear of relief

Because I finally realised

I found my bliss

-by honey, 31 Dec 2008-

Happy new year everyone (:

2008-12-16T02:10:00.003+08:00

Ok, I read this book Somaly Mam which is the true story of a Cambodian who fled sexual slavery and now decodes her life to rescuing others.

I love reading books like this because it's just wonderful how people with the odds stacked against them manage to overcome it all to promote a better life for themselves and somehow spread a better and more humane world for others. It makes me appreciate life more and gives me hope that if they can do it when their life was so horrible, why not me ? And I have a great family who supports me through thick and thin. They had nothing. They didn't have material possessions that I have, they didn't have anything. All they had were the clothes on their back and a glimmer of hope to push on each day, to hope for a better tomorrow...to survive.

Anyways If you have read books like Chinese Cinderella and even after all this time, this book is a must read. And if you haven't read those two books, they must be read too. Seriously.

So this book basically talks about trafficking. How children are sold as sex slaves- raped, beaten, abused by 20 men each day. How virgins are sewed without anaesthetics and resold for weeks as "virgins" as in Cambodia they believe virgins can cure... aids? And some children start at the age of 8 and being to "small" men cut open their vuhjayjays with knifes. How horrible is that?! It's a real eye opener.

Please visit the sites to know more about this and how to help curb this horrible fate for millions of young women
http://www.somaly.org/

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Somaly_Mam

2008-12-08T13:37:00.002+08:00

I will never understand this irony of life.
I hate it.
My life ALWAYS seems to be screwed up.
One thing or another ALWAYS happens. Im a loner. I admit. People are nice to be around, but most of the time, I like to be alone with my thoughts.
Sometimes, I really just want to run away.
I have been suicidal. I have had those thoughts. Living is harder than dying. And every day I slowly drift to the obscure.
The happy face? That's just an act.
I don't procrastinate, I hate everyone.
If I were to die tomorrow, I'll die with no regrets.
And I doubt anyone would even notice I'm gone...I mean...I was never here, right ?

2008-12-06T02:53:00.002+08:00

It's been a while since I blogged, I mean, really... It's just that nothing has really been happening in my life. Same old routines and Im not abt to blog "oh i went here and there and here and i bought this" and spam it with pictures everyday. Basically I've been living. You'd think after spm I'd be bored, but somehow there's just so much for me to do. and it's great! Any who, when something interesting DOES come up, ill definitely share my train of tots with my fellow non existent readers.
Till thn,
honey.

2008-11-29T20:24:00.004+08:00

Ok, maybe this is kinda overdue, but

SPM IS OVER

YES! The day I've waited for since like...forever has finally come.

NO MORE SCHOOL.

whooo!

NO MORE UNIFORMS!

whooopie

NO MORE RULES

*does a jig*
but...Idk...maybe I kinda willl miss it...

...NOT

Ok, so allow me to recap those days of SPMishimness

Random pictures in class.

So my final paper was on the 27th, Est. and before the next paper me, Ivan and Mabel decided to go Mr. Pot for lunch/breakfast/brunch? wtv
And in the car, "my song" came on. And since I had my camera with me, I recorded the awesomeness!

After that we went to school and did the FINAL paper... (well for me and ivan...*pokes mabel* HAHA)
And when we were done, there was this feeling of...omg...its over. and I got all patriotic and sand the negaraku anthem : who would've tot.

Anyways we went gurney and walked around...

and we went to secret recipe for tea/lunch/tunch ? wtv

But after ordering we realized the time and it was 10 minutes to 5 and our movie was at 5. so we cancelled our order ~~(with lots of embarrassment)~~ and went to the cinema.

OMG. Twilight. Robert Pattinson. *drroll* Seriously, I dont think Rob is really hot in real life but in that movie, the character, the intensity, the passion, the...edward ? I fell in love with him. so now, my new obsession is The Rob.

The movie was over we had dinnah at BBQ chicken. Ivan didn't join us. He had some bitchin' to do.

And since SPM ended I NEEDED to burn something! and I didnt have a lighter, so I bought a lighter and BURNT MY SCHEDULE!

all in all, I am so glad spm is over. this day took forever to come and now that it's gone...~~i just dread results.~~ LOL.

2008-11-05T14:35:00.001+08:00

Change has finally come to America (:

In death King became a martyr in the civil rights struggle, but in life he was a charismatic hero battling for racial equality, from the 1956 bus boycott in Montgomery, Alabama and non-violent protest marches through to his famous "I have a dream" speech in Washington in 1963."I have a dream that one day this nation will rise up and live out the true meaning of its creed: 'We hold these truths to be self-evident, that all men are created equal,'" King told some 250,000 people gathered at the Lincoln Memorial in the US capital."I have a dream that my four little children will one day live in a nation where they will not be judged by the color of their skin but by the content of their character."Four words -- "I have a dream" -- thundered through his speech and entered into the American lexicon as symbols of the pursuit of racial equality in America.Some 40 years later, Democratic presidential candidate Barack Obama's campaign is putting that concept to the test.

2008-11-04T21:09:00.003+08:00

♥SPM 2008♥

♫♦♪

11.11.2008 - Tuesday

BM 1

SEJ 1

BM 2

♫♦♪

12.11.2008 - Wednesday

BI 1

BI 2

SEJ 2

♫♦♪

13.11.2008 - Thursday

MATH 1

MATH 2

♫♦♪

17.11.2008 - Monday

SCIENCE 1

SCIENCE 2

♫♦♪

18.11.2008 - Tuesday

ADD MATH 1

ADD MATH 2

♫♦♪

19.11.2008 - Wednesday

ISLAM 1

ISLAM 2

♫♦♪

20.11.2008 - Thursday

CHEM 1

CHEM 2

CHEM 3

♫♦♪

24.11.2008 - Monday

BIO 1

BIO 2

BIO 3

♫♦♪

25.11.2008 - Tuesday

PHYSICS 1

PHYSICS 2

PHYSICS 3

♫♦♪

27.11.2008 - Thursday

EST 2

EST 1

♫♦♪

you will never know how it feels to have the person that means everything to you make you feel like nothing.

2008-10-30T22:36:00.000+08:00

Ich bin deine Ritze / Ich bin deine Ritze und Schlitze

I am your scratches / I am your scratches and slits

2008-10-29T05:49:00.001+08:00

Beyonce:

The heart is stronger than you think,
It’s like it can go through anything.
And even when you think it can’t it finds a way to still push on, though

Carrie:

Sometimes you want to run away, Ain’t got the patience for the pain
And if you don’t believe it look into, your heart the beat goes on

Rihanna:

I’m tellin’ you that,

Rihanna/Miley:

Things get better, Through whatever

Rihanna:

If you fall, dust it off, don’t let up

Sheryl:

Don’t you know you can go be your own miracle

Beyonce:

You need to know

CHORUS :
Sheryl:

If the mind keeps thinking you’ve had enough, But the heart keeps telling you don’t give up

Sheryl/Beyonce:

Who are we to be..questioning, wondering what is what
Don’t give up…THROUGH IT ALL, JUST STAND UP!

Fergie:

It’s like we all have better days
Problems getting all up in your face

Leona:

Just because you go through it

Fergie:

Don’t mean it got to take control, no

Leona:

You ain’t gotta find no hiding place

Keyshia:

Because the heart can beat the hate

Leona:

Don’t wanna let your mind keep playin’ you

Keyshia:

And sayin’ you can’t go on

Rihanna:

I’m tellin’ you that

Miley:

Things get better
Through whatever

Rihanna:

If you fall

Miley:

Dust if off, don’t let up

LeAnn:

Don’t you know you

Natasha:

Can go

LeAnn:

Be your own

Natasha:

Miracle

Carrie:

You need to know

Mary:

You don’t gotta be a prisoner in your mind

Ciara:

If you fall, dust it off

Mary:

You can live your life

Rihanna/Carrie:

Yeah

Mary:

Let your heart be your guide

Rihanna/Carrie:

Yeah yeah yeah

Mariah:

And you will know that you’re good if you trust in the good

Ashanti:

Everything will be alright, yeah
Light up the dark, if you follow your heart

Mary:

And it will get better

Mariah:

Through whatever

CHORUS

Fergie:

You got it in you, find it within
You got in now, find it within now
You got in you, find it within
You got in now, find it within now
You got in you, find it within
Find it within you, find it within

Everyone: THROUGH IT ALL, JUST STAND UP

2008-10-27T21:52:00.003+08:00

THIS IS A RANT. seriously. dont read if you dont want to read me rant.

Ok, so basically my life has been a pathetic routine that i want to break out of.
I am stressed hence suffering mild depression? Is that normal when you get stressed?
Dont take me wrong here, I think me being stress shows that I actually care about this SPM thingy because 96% of the time I dont get stressed. So... I am happy but unhappy that I'm stressed. Does that even make sense?
Because I usually take life as it goes. And frankly speaking the "getting straight A's for SPM" is so lame. Not that I dont care about getting straight A's or whatever I just think it's so overrated. I mean, even with B's you can still enter the university and stuff unless you were aiming for a scholarship - thn you'd have no choice BUT to get straight A's.
But think about it, why all the hype? I mean, at the end of the day, in the long run, its about how much you earn and if your job can support a lifestyle that you want to live after your education is over. or so to say, once you become an adult in the real world (because apparently the world that we teenagers live in is the fake world)

I hate routine. I cannot express how much I hate routine. I jsut want to be able to do what I want when i want how I want. My mom says after SPM I can go out and do what I want when I want and how I want-but we all know that's not happening la. Lol. After my PMR I was promised that and i didnt get it. I pointed it out to my mom and she's like well now you're older and i gave her the "yeah right sure" look. I mean seriously. I sometimes feel claustrophobic. like the walls around me are slowly caving in. I need one day to just sleep and do nothing. I know I have those days but I feel so exhausted la. Like, Really. Mentally and physically.

Ok this is gonna be so out of topic. But i cannot stand rejection. ~~Maybe its because I was brought up that way?~~ I dont know. I usually get what I want (Within limit) and have the last say. Not having the last say in smething is making me pissed. It's like for instance if you hate me and you come crawling back to me, I want the satisfaction of hating you last? Omg. Imsuchabitch. But you get the idea! I like to be in control. so yeah. that's bugging me too.

There's also the weight/height/looks issue. People see me as confident. LOL. lets just say im a good faker. We all have our insecurities. I have mine. And some days they re just staring you in the face. so...basically you feel really crappie.

Also ALSO,yes theres more, Ive been home alot more now. Like home alone. 2 days now. With leftover dinners and sandwiches. yay me ? anyways, I used to have hamsters. the last one died this year (godblesshissoul) and I want a dog. I WANT A DOG. I want one so badly. But there's a part of me going, no I dont want one. I dont have time for one. and another part going BUT YES YOU DO. ok let me make this easier to understand
me : I want a dog laa. Im so lonely. Ive wanted one since I was 9 but never got one!
Me2: Yea, but you don't have time or a dog. You're 17! you're going to college soon. Do you think you'd have time for one? Are mum and dad gonna be keeping it? and you know dad doesn't really like animals. His favorite pet would be a fish for christ sake.
Me: But maybe I can work something out. Or foster pets or something!
Me2: But you don't even have a garden!
Me: Ah, but My apartment is 2 stories! and we have the whole library area and stuff that's practically empty!
Me2: Are you gonnna be cleaning the dog or is mom?
Me: OBVIOUSLY ME!
Me2: When you go to college?
ME: well..
So that's basically is what is going on

SO I HAVE DIAGNOSED MYSELF WITH mild depression and maybe anxiety and bipolar disorder teamed with insomnia?.
the end of the rant.

2008-10-26T21:18:00.001+08:00

Suicide Butterfly

Fluttering my way

Saying , "Hey Honey, tomorrow is NOT a better day"

Crawling in my thoughts

Screwing with my mind

Suicide butterfly will show you how your perfect life

isn't fine

-Written by Honey

I need help.

Stressed.

2008-10-20T13:50:00.002+08:00

I found this essay I wrote
A LONNNNG TIME AGO
like, 3 years? The if i could change the world one.
It's pretty lame. I didnt expect to win but I guess I wanted to share my view on the whole race/religion thing.

If I could change the world
The world that we live in has an abundance of problems. Racism, Religious discrimination, war, poverty, pollution are just some issues that connect to us in one way or another. Have you ever wondered what could possibly be the root of these problems? Well, I strongly think that it is Racism and Religious discrimination. That is why if I could change the world, I would make everyone of one race and religion.
Let me start by explaining how all the problems I’ve stated above are interconnected. We start with racism and religious discrimination. Someone somewhere could have made a rather harsh statement that offended many people of a certain race or religion which might lead to war, the second problem. Innocent people who are in the middle of this war will suffer a great deal and thus poverty due to lack of food and basic necessities. The bomb blasts which contain many toxic chemical gasses which will cause pollution and the depletion of the ozone layer thus the greenhouse effect which will harm us, the human race. See my point?
Racism. What is it? We’ve all either read about it, experienced it personally or know of someone who has, but what is it? It mainly refers to the beliefs, practices and institutions that differentiate and discriminate against people based on their race. Primarily, it refers to an assumption that the human species can be divided into different races, coupled with hostility toward people of a certain race and that races differ in value. Some people even believe that races can be placed on a ranked hierarchical scale!
Racism is divided into three major categories which are individual racism such as when someone like an employer does not hire, promote or fires you in whole or part due to your race. The second is structural racism, which starts from individual racism to become a structure of a one-race policy. The last is ideological racism, racism without knowing someone of that race but has an assumption or conception about that certain race. Researches at the University of Chicago and Harvard found out in a 2003 study that there was widespread discrimination at the workplace against job applicants whose names were merely perceived as “sounding black” even though they had excellent qualifications and many years of experience.
Racism goes on everywhere everyday all around the world, in schools, homes, offices and many other places. I too have been a victim of racism as one of friend’s father does not like her mixing with other races with the exception of her own. I am a born Mix and my roots can be traced back all the way to Pakistan and Mongolia but it does not mean I am any lesser than a Chinese or that I am a terrorist! The United Nations uses a definition of racial discrimination laid out in the International Convention on the Elimination of All Forms of Racial Discrimination and adopted in 1966 which states, “…any distinction, exclusion, restriction or preference based on race, colour, descent or national or ethnic origin which has the purpose or effect of nullifying or impairing the recognition, enjoyment or exercise, on an equal footing, of human rights and fundamental freedoms in the political, economic, social, cultural or any other field of public life”. Remember, you cannot fight racism with racism; the best way to fight it is with solidarity.
Religious discrimination is also a big problem that we face daily. Religious discrimination is treating a person or group lower because of their perceived “inferior” or “valueless” religion or treating someone differently because of what they do not or do believe. While many religious and secular authorities nowadays tend to stress that religion is something personal, the highly social nature of most religions creates conflicts between religious groups, and thus discrimination.
Adolf Hitler was the most heartless of all human beings in racial and religious discrimination. He was against the Jews and tried to eliminate them from the face of our earth. He without doubt is the German leader responsible for the Holocaust, which killed millions of Jews, the disabled, homosexuals and gypsies during World War II. He used to say, “If I can send the flower of the German nation into the hell of war without the smallest pity for the shedding of precious German blood, then surely I have the right to remove millions of an inferior race that breeds like vermin.” Apart from Adolf Hitler, The Klu Klux Klan or better known as the KKK whom are also similar to Hitler in many ways as they are a group that advocates anti-Semitism and show hatred to anyone who is not white.
Lamb Gaede and Lynx Gaede are 13-year-old American twins whom are getting attention for the angry and hateful lyrics they sing in their pop act, Prussian Blue. They perform at gatherings for the Klu Klux Klan and wear T-shirts with Adolf Hitler smiley faces on them. They both think that Hitler was a great man who was trying to preserve his race and country and do not believe in mixing races as it will be a “big mess”. Their mother, April, is a racist who has brought up the girls to believe that whites are the superior race. She has been home-schooling them, teaching them her version of history that downplays the Holocaust.
Much effort has been exhausted to eliminate racism and religious discrimination to promote equality and unity among people of different races and religions but they have all failed miserably. Malaysia’s newest project is National Service, a three month program whose main goal is to promote unity and understanding among the students of different races and religions. This project will benefit in many ways other than Racism and Religious discrimination. Racism and Religious discrimination isn’t born, it’s taught. If 11 years of schooling does not change that, how can 3 months? These values should be taught at a very young and vulnerable age.
Why do we seem destined to define ourselves with labels? Labels are mere words. If we want others to know what we are, why not show them? Show them through action. Actions still speak louder than words. I do not care if you are a Buddhist, a Muslim, a White, a Christian, a Hindu, a Black, a Jew, a follower of any countless other faiths, traditions, paths, colour, race or religions that are spread throughout this World.
We are all one. One human family, one world, one universe. As the Dalai Lama says it, "All human beings come from a mother's womb. We are all the same part of one human family. We should have a clear realization of the oneness of all humanity." Only when we understand this, there would be no racism or religious discrimination.
I thank you for letting me share my views. Sharing is how we learn from others. Through sharing comes understanding. From understanding comes trust. From trust comes friendship. From friendship comes hope and admiration. From all of these great things there comes peace. That is why if I could change the world, I would eliminate all but one religion and race.

2008-10-19T01:37:00.003+08:00

I am so obseesed with vampires- you have no idea! So I decided to make myself one. haha. These are the steps on how i did it. nyeh. I AM A VAMPIRE.

The Original

Changing skin and eye colour

Adding make up and fangs

A lil bloood :D

Crop and add watermark

and contrast it using curves.

took me about an hour ++ to do. haha :D

I EES PROUD

2008-10-16T22:33:00.001+08:00

I’m a slut because I’ll wear shorts and a tank top

I’m a bitch because I don't let you push me around

I’m a liar because I won't tell you everything

I’m stupid because sometimes I’m wrong

I’m ugly because my face isn't perfect

I’m a whore because I like boys

I’m annoying because I’m not chill enough

I’m a loser because I’m not friends with your group

I’m a playgirl because I don’t fall for every guy I meet

I use people because I do what’s best for me

I’m fake because most of the time I’m happy

I’m weird because I’m not like you

I’m controlling because I get mad sometimes

I’m clingy because I like to be around people

I’m greedy because I like to be satisfied

I’m naive because I’m younger than you

I’m conceited because I’m proud of who I am

I’m rude because my manners aren't perfect

I’m unappreciative because I don't praise you

I’m self-obsessed because I have a lot to say

Don't try to tell me who I am because you have no idea.

2008-10-16T17:53:00.006+08:00

From a book I read

Each Paragraph is from a different page.

I decided to share:

Never trust fairy tales, any story that ends with "They all lived happily ever after" is a crock. There are no happy endings. No endings, full stop. Life goes on. There's always something new around the corner. You can overcome major obstacles, face great danger, look evil in the eye and live to tell the tale - but that's not the end. Life sweeps you forward, swings you round, bruises and batters you, drops some new drama or strategy on your lap, never lets go until you reach one true end - death. As long as you're breathing, your story's still going.

Life isn't a fairy tale. Stories don't end.

They continue as long as you're alive. You just have to get on with things. Turn the page, start a new chapter, find out what's in store for you next, and keep your fingers crossed that it's not too awful. Even if you know in your heart and soul that it most probably will be.

There are no happy endings.

Remember that.

2008-10-11T03:17:00.001+08:00

I got it through a forwarded email

Think about it.

2008-10-07T00:13:00.000+08:00

Boys are cheats and liars,
They’re such a big disgrace,
They will tell you anything
To get to second base-

-ball, baseball,
He thinks he's gonna score,
If you let him go all the way
Then you are a whore-

-ticulturists study flowers,
Geologists study rocks,
The only thing a guy wants from you
Is a place to put his cock-

-roaches, beetles,
Butterflies, and bugs,
Nothing makes him happier
Than a giant pair of jug-

-lers and acrobats
And dancing bears named chuck,
All boys want to do is...
Forget it no such luck.

2008-10-06T02:40:00.000+08:00

2008-10-05T01:02:00.002+08:00

A boy of seven threw a zoo’s rare reptiles to the resident crocodile and bludgeoned other creatures to death.

CCTV recorded the child laughing as he rampaged round the Australian reptile farm, his mother making no attempt to stop him.

Ten lizards, turtles and other reptiles were devoured by the crocodile, while three were pounded to death with rocks during the 30-minute killing spree.

‘This behaviour is sickening,’ said Rex Neindorf, director of the Alice Springs Reptile Centre.

Staff were particularly upset by the loss of a female Spencer’s goanna, a type of lizard, which he bludgeoned to death with a rock.

The animals were worth £3,500.

Mr Neindorf plans to sue the child’s parents because he is three years under the legal age of criminal responsibility. Police are to interview them.

The boy, whose deadly acts were caught on the zoo's security camera, also threw several live animals to Terry over the two fences surrounding the crocodile's enclosure.
At one point, the youngster climbed over the outer fence to get closer to the giant reptile.

In the footage, the boy's face remains largely blank.
'It was like he was playing a game,' Mr Neindorf said.
He killed 13 animals, including a turtle, bearded dragons and thorny devil lizards.

Although none were rare, some would be difficult to replace, the zoo director added.

'We're horrified that anyone can do this, and saddened by the age of the child,' Mr Neindorf said.
Alice Springs police said they identified the boy, who lives locally, but were unable to press charges because of his age.

Children under age 10 are not criminally liable under the law in the Northern Territory.
'By all accounts, he's quite a nasty 7-year-old,' said Neindorf.

'If we can't put the blame onto the child, then someone has to accept the responsibility.'
The zoo's security system, which relies on sensors, probably did not detect the boy because he is so small.

http://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/worldnews/article-1067310/Boy-7-feeds-zoo-animals-crocodile-bludgeons-death-30-minute-rampage.html

Click the link to see pictures of the demonic child.

When I heard this I was utterly shocked.
I mean first of all, killing at any age is BAD.
but killing at 7! WHATTHAFARk
HE KILLED ANIMALS AT 7
AND HIS PARENTS DIDNT STOP HIM

WHAT THE HELL LA

I want to give him a tight slap la
nonsense.

2008-10-03T13:39:00.003+08:00

I dont know why, recently ive been more philosophical. And thinking about life. And time. And memories. And basically feel all melancholy ish.

"There is melancholy in the wind and sorrow in the grass" (Charles Kuralt)

I guess that just means I'm stressed.

I tend to think about everything when I'm stressed.

I dont understand why people want to waste their lives away.
There are so many aspects and different interpretations of wasting your life.
There's the basic and most common wasting of life which is basically throwing your life away- drugs, smoking, excessive partying? and not giving a shit basically.

I think that's just dumb, if anyone does that slap em!

I believe I was born for greatness. I think we all were born to achieve and do greaat things. Not super uberly great things like finding the cure for cancer but greatness in ones own point of view.
Confused? ~~I BET YOU ARE~~
Well, like, when you help someone, even if it's something so insignificant to you (or them) is a great thing. Like, when you see someone drop a 50 note as tempted as you are to take it you stop them and return their cash.
That is a great thing.
Or maybe if your go to the animal shelter just to play with the pets for a day.
That is a great thing.
Or how about being polite to your parents for a day.
That is a great thing.
Or even telling someone u love them.
That is a great thing.
We all are capable of great things and even if we're rejected or unappreciated for the things that we do, we shouldnt feel bad or upset about it, but rather rejoice the fact that we actually did it.We didn't hesitate, we didn't procrastinate, we did it.

I try to live life with no regrets.
TRY

I think everything that ive done whether good or bad has made an impact
I dont go around wishing people shoot me
or wishing I hadnt hung out with that person
or wish i could turn back time to redo anything
I would turn back time to relive my memories
But to change anything- never.

Anyways,
SPM so near
but I dont feel like studying
I just want to die on the floor
or start partying
Where my party people at
haha
GAHHH
WHY COULDNT IT BE AN OPEN BOOK EXAM
goddamnit
haha
well yeah :\

I wish everyone was loved tonight
and somehow stop this endless fight
just a chance that maybe we'll find better days

-Goo goo dolls, better days

2008-09-24T20:11:00.005+08:00

Time.

Something man has no control over.
How fast does time fly?

I mean, it's gonna be october soon!
WHERE DID MY YEAR GO?
Feels like only yesterday I was walking in nervously into the hall of Sri Pinang wondering if I'd be accepted amongst my new friends

and now
ITS GONNA BE OCTOBER.

All I know
time is a valuable thing
Watch it fly by as the pendulum swings
Watch it count down to the end of the day
The clock ticks life away
It’s so unreal
Didn’t look out below
Watch the time go right out the window
Trying to hold on / but didn’t even know
Wasted it all just to
Watch you go
Linkin park-in the end

In otherwords, my SPM is nearing but instead of studying, here I am, on the computer, blogging.

Procastinatingmuch?

I was doing my grandparents anniversary present just now.

Mom bought this really awesome photoframe for them and I thought it'd be cool if I put pictures of them in it!

So, I was going through the photoalbum, lots of black and white photos. And I saw this once picture of my mom when she was ...what...one?

And i was like "woah, that's my mom : "

not exactly in a bad way, but maybe in nostalgic way?
I saw lots of pictures of myself as a kid
And i remember taking them and it jusst hit me "I'm eighteen next year... "
and Im in my final year of school
Feels like yesterday that I was in form 1 complaining on how much i cant wait for school to end!
And dont get me wrong, I DO want it to end, but it seems strangely shorter than it was.

:\

I guesss what I'm trying to say is
DONT procrastinate-do what you want!
Dont let petty things get in the way of friendship or in love!
I mean, life is TOO short to spend hating someone
Or living with regrets
Or worrying about what's to come
Enjoy the moment
Love
Laugh
Live
And KNOW you're not gonna get this same very moment, year, day, hour, minute,sec, milisec, or
whatever back again. Once it's gone, it's gone.
(:

So since I dont want to waste my life wondering

Im gonna scream it out now

To my family: Jesus, sometimes I cannot stand you guys (oops) but know deep down i love all of you guys alot

To my friends: YOU GUYS ROCK MY SOCKS. Be happy to know if I died tomorrow, I'd be happy to have known you guys and have had so many bittersweet moments to share with you

To my lovahsss to come: YOU BETTTER NOT CHEAT OR IM GNA END YOUR LIFE *imeanItInTheNicestOfWays

Anwyays

I tot i'd be fun to show you guys how I used to look :D

Orange is so my colour :D

Sister&me

Looking for LOST BEST FRIEND, Sarah Michelle Matthews (ithink)

I still watch TV like that... :D

Sister;SHE STILL KISSES ME AND PINCHES MY CHEEK.

I remember this picture it was in Genting. It was my sexy model pose :D

2008-09-23T23:39:00.001+08:00

2008-09-22T16:45:00.001+08:00

It's not the fault of student if
he/she fails because the year ONLY
has 365 days...
typical academic year for a student:

1. Sundays - 52 Sundays in a year, you know Sundays are for rest.
Days left 313.

2. Summer holidays - 50 LIKE WE STUDY .
Days left 263.

3. 8 hours daily sleep - 130 days GONE.
Days left 141.

4. 1 hour for daily playing- (good for health) means 15 days.
Days left 126.

5. 2 hours daily for food & other delicacies (chewing properly & swallowing) - means 30 days.
Days left 96.

6. 1 hour for talking (man is a social animal) - means 15 days.
Days left 81.

7. Exam days - per year at least 35 days.
Days left 46.

8. Quarterly, half yearly and festival (holidays) - 40 days.
Days left 6.

9. For sickness - at least 3 days.
Days left 3.

10. Movies and functions- at least 2 days.
1 day left.

11. That 1 day is your birthday.
How can you study on that day ?!?!?!?!?!

Balance = 0

you tell me.

2008-09-21T00:49:00.000+08:00

fuck, this is funny.

2008-09-19T14:41:00.002+08:00

stange eh how life is?
One day your life seems perfect and the next it's an utter disaster
You just dont know what can happen and in a split second it does.
You dont even catch it with your blind eyes. You just THINK you saw it, and BAM it hits you out of no where.

Somedays like this, I sit and I wonder and I just reflect on what things have happened to me. Things that I wouldnt have expected to, things that never wouldve crossed my mind.

Like for instance, when I was in primary school, the amount of backstabbing, bitching and fights I had. To think my best friends thn, arent my best friends now.

Or maybe the fact that this year Im in a whole new school, with new friends, positive energy. It's not exactly such a drag or torture to go to school anymore, it's more fun actually.

I used to love, and I love passionately, but I lost. And now I dont even dare approach those waters of leervvv again. I for see me being single, with 38 cats living alone. Let's see if that prediction comes to.

It seems to me that nothing really good ever lasts with me. Like, nothing.
I get something, I love it, I cherish it, and it slips away.
It's like a pattern with friends, family, pets, school, grades, shoes.
GAHH

Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end
I want to pull away when the dream dies
The pain sets it and I don't cry
I only feel gravity and I wonder why
Well the dogs were barking at a new moon
Whistling a new tune
Hoping it would come soon
And the sun was wondering if it should stay away for a day 'til the feeling went away
And the sky was falling on the clouds were dropping and
the rain forgot how to bring salvation
the dogs were barking at the new moon
Whistling a new tune
Hoping it would come soon so that they could die.

Nelly furtado-why do all good things (come to an end)

2008-09-15T17:40:00.002+08:00

1. The last person to tag you is?

-- JessiCA

3. Your 5 impression towards him/her?

-- I wouldn't exactly say we're super close, but ya know, we have this connnectionnnn ;)

4. The most memorable thing that he/she has ever done for you?

-- When she came for my 16th birthday party. that was fun on a whole new level.

5. The most memorable words that he/she spoke to you?

-- I cant remember exactly but I invited her to her first party, so that's a really awesome feeling.

6. If he/she becomes your lover, you will..

-- get down&dirty. oh la la

7. If he/she becomes your enemy, you will.

.-- BE SADDDDDD ):

8. If he/she becomes your lover, he/she has to improve on..

-- NOTHING. Jessi is perfect in every way!

9. If he/she becomes your enemy, the reason is..

.--She ate my cookie. HAHAHA

10. The most desirable thing to do for him/her is...

-- Go to china :D hahaha ;)

11. Overall impression towards him/her is...

-- One world. AWESOME.

12. How do you think the people around you will feel about you?

-- Ireallydontknow. ask them? :\

13. The character for you for yourself is..

-- ? *blank*

14. On the contrary, the character you hate of yourself is?

-- Uhrm...*blank* whats not to love? :P

15. The most ideal person you want to be is?

-- Megan Fox. But im happy being me too :D

16. For the person who cares and likes you, say something about him/her.

-- uhrm. SINGLE: but youre welcome to change that :P

17. Ten people to tag.

1.Kesh

2. Natasha

3. Ivan

4. May

5.Emmi

6.Shu

7.Lara

8.Amresh

9.Alex

10.Chittesh

ok people who I tag, u dont have to do it, seriously.

18. Who is number 2 having a relationship with ?

-- Idk...*twiddles fingers*

19. Is 3 a male or a female ?

-- FEMALE :P hahahaha!

20. If number 7 and 10 got together, would that be a good thing ?

-- hmm. I odnt know.

21. How about 5 and 8?

-- LMFAO NO!

22. What is number 1 studying about ?

-- Ireallydontknow. What are u studying abt kesh?

23. When was the last time you had a chat with them?

-- I chat with number 1,2,3 and 4 almost everyday. so...

24. Is number 4 single?

-- MINE.

25. Say something about number 2?

-- FREAKKKK

2008-09-15T16:51:00.002+08:00

You know something is wrong
when you have no idea about anything physics
and people look in your direction for answers
Jesus people, I dont know physics
I hate it so much
IT'S like a whole NEW level of hate
Like ok, let's talk about the hate levels

Level 1
hate like as in hating to go to school

Level 2
Hate like how I hate ms Juni and Syamala

Level 3
Hate like hating physics

GOSH, WHYYYYY PHYSICS WHYYY
*stabs book*

Stupid abhorrent, despicable, heinous, loathsome, outrageously repulsive and VILE subject.

and for that
Ive written a song

I HATE YOU PHYSICS
PLEASE DIE
DAMN YOU ISAAC NEWTON
FOR PLAGUING MY LIFE
I DO NOT GIVE A SHIT
ABOUT THE SCIENCE OF MATTER
DO I LOOK LIKE I NEED TO KNOW how-to-calculate-the-energy-released-by-the-fission-of -one-uranium-235-nucleus-while-suspended-in-air-trying-to-calculate-gravitational-pull-and-deciding-how-much-would-be-needed-to-reach-thermal-equilibrium-while-trying-to-understand-the-force-on-a-current-carrying-conductor-in-a-magnetic-field-as-I-am-analysing-refraction-of-waves-reflected-by-a-concave-or-convex-mirror-at-an-angle-of-30degrees-while-looking-at-a-ship-using-Archimedes'-principal-that-states-that-the-upwards-thrust-experienced-by-an-object-in-liquid-is-equal-to-the-weight-of-the-liquid-displaced?
NO I DONNNNNN THINK SOOOOOOO
THANK YOU BUT
I AM FINE
STOP FUCKING SCREWING WITH MY MIND
DIEEE PHYSICS DIEEEEE
DIIIEEEEE
DIIEEEEE

If anyone hates physics as much as I do, please, lets be friends (:

2008-09-08T01:02:00.002+08:00

Do costumes make you horny?

2008-09-06T13:14:00.003+08:00

Yesterday, I went to Mc Donalds and and and there was this irritating fat aunty indian lady infront of me with what seems to be her husband?

~~Which was shocking for me coz at first glance I thought she was a man~~

ANYWAYS

I was in line to get my food or wtv at the counter and she actually TURNED around to directly FACE me and look me up and down and give me the "oh, this is a slut" look.

I mean, WTF IS THAT ABOUT? :

And fine, she did it once. I was like, hmm, ok.

BUT THAN SHE DID IT AGAIN

And again

and at one point I stared back at her

IN HER EYES

And you know usually people would turn away,

SHE STARED BACK

whatthehelliswrongwithher?!

and seriously

SHE LOOKED ME UP AND DOWN

and did the disapproving face

and rolled her eyes

and there was no one behind me

SO WHY? ):

I DONT EVEN KNOW HER

2008-09-05T14:51:00.000+08:00

A not necessarily well-prepared student sat in his life science classroom, staring at a question on the final exam paper. The question directed: "Give four advantages of breast milk."

What to write? He sighed, and began to scribble whatever came into his head, hoping for the best:

1. No need to boil.
2. Never goes sour.
3. Available whenever necessary.

So far so good - maybe. But the exam demanded a fourth answer. Again, what to write? Once more, he sighed. He frowned. He scowled, then sighed again. Suddenly, he brightened. He grabbed his pen, and triumphantly, he scribbled his definitive answer:

4. Available in attractive containers of varying sizes.

He received an A.

2008-09-05T00:18:00.004+08:00

Honey has a headache

I tell you it isn't swell

Honey has a headache

It feels like she's in hell

Honey has a headache

Her head wants to explode

Honey has a headache

I guess that's how her life goes

Honey has a headache

STUPID HEADACHE JUST GO

This headache is evil

It's unlike any other

It's making her loose her sleep

It makes her unable to think of sheep

Because of the headache she cannot study

Because of the headache she writes this right now

Because of the headache

she wants to scream out loud

Damn you headache

DIE DIE DIE

You're making me feel crazy

As if I'm losing my mind

KEEEL ME

OMG

I have a headache ):

2008-09-04T20:43:00.001+08:00

everyone

GET OUT OF MY FACE

and let me breathe

2008-09-03T15:15:00.002+08:00

RULE #1People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs and replace any question that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves..

RULE #2Tag 8 people to do this quiz and those who are tagged cannot refuse. These people must state who they were tagged by and cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by continue this game by sending it to other people.

1. If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?
WTH, SOMEONE CHEAT ON ME! and thn you pray I'd meet him when I'm wearing my 4 inch heels for unimaginable pain. :D

2. If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?
To be a freggin KABAZILLIONAIRE

3. What makes you unmotivated?
Shouldn't it be demotivated? ANYWYAS, I really dont know. I get distracted pretty easily...

4. What would you do with a billion dollars?
Buy a car, Buy a new house, My versace shoes, etc etc etc.

5. Will you fall in love with your best friend?
Mabel Be afraid
May be afriad
Ranj Be afriad
Ivan..NAHHH
LOL

6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
being lvoed for loving someone. :D:D:D

7. How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?
Im young, it'll come. COMMON. Right now, lets fling it :D

8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
Find a new person I secretly like. :D

9. Is there anything that has made you extremely happy?
I had a dream that exams were cancelled...oh well...

10. What takes you down the fastest?
People calling me pudgy and short ):

11. How would you see yourself in ten years time?
Rich, hot, TALL, thin and ruling the world BITCHES.

13. What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?
Natasha (aka sisteerrr) uhrm, do I have to say nice things? LOL jokes. She's great (: I can borrow her clothes (:

14. Would you rather be single and rich or married but poor?
Single and RICH. :D

15. What's the first thing you do when you wake up?
Breathe. Followed by checking my phone and going "damn i cant sleep ): "

16. Would you give all in a relationship?
Define all. LOL /whoo.
I'd give some, take some, have some and loose some. LOL

17. If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick?
The one who loves me back? DUH ==

18. Would you forgive and forget no matter how horrible a thing the someone has done?
WELL, I'll forgive but NEVVERRR EVER forget.

19. Would you suffer now and enjoy later or the opposite?
I rather not suffer throughout my life. Suffering is optional.

20. List 8 people to tag:Ivan and anyone else la... :(

2008-09-01T19:00:00.002+08:00

ok, I cant decide if this outfit britney wore is sexy or slutty?
I know the rule to dress sexy is only show ONE, the cleavage, the midriff or the legs but, Is this really slutty? I mean, shes covered head to toe, but thn again, its see-through.

And people who post bikini pictures up on facebook or friendster
Sexy? Or slutty?

OMG
I NEED A VOTE

2008-08-30T13:27:00.001+08:00

Let's kill sejarah

Esp Chapter 6 of form 4

DIE SEJARAH DIE!

DIEEEE

*stabs book with knife*

BWAHAHAHAHHAAH!

2008-08-30T00:23:00.000+08:00

I conclude, Myspace is evil :

2008-08-27T16:00:00.002+08:00

SPM NIGHT

FINALE
Part 4

read part 1 2 and 3 below first

"But sir", weslet stammered. "The school rules ban us from being together!"
"I know that's why if I kill you we can be together for eternity", said Mr Heah as he took the blade and placed it on Wesleys neck.
At that moment, Wesley knew any rebellience towards Mr Heah will cause him to drag that blade.
"Ok, Wesley, are you ready? I am but...", suddenly blood came out from Mr Heah's mouth.
Mr Heah stopped and Wesley took advantage to step back. Mr Heah fell to the ground and there stood Miss Junie. Wesley couldnt believe his eyes, why would SHE save him!
Miss Junie Screamed and said, "I do everything for you! but you people never do anything for me! you dont respect me! But...Wesley...for you...I'd do anything Wesley..."
"Wait, let me get this straight, you BOTH have a crush on me?"
"Well, not crush, more like madly in love, and now..NOW, youre all mine!"
"What makes you think I'll accept a MAD lady?"
"You have no choice," Said Junie as she slowly crept towards him but suddenly a few policemen came and pinned her to the ground.
"WHY", Junie Screamed, "All I wanted was to be loved. COME ON!"
The police took her to a mental ward as Wesley sat on the bench thinking about what a day it has been. Looking around the room, eyeing the sunset, he thought, waking up isn't always a blessing...

THE END

Comments and Questions (if any) on tagboard

If you want to see the characters pictures, lemme know, Im taking my camera to school on friday :D:D:D:D

ENJOY

Lots of love
Honey
Mabel

le' awesomness!

2008-08-26T13:02:00.001+08:00

SPM NIGHT

PART 3

READ PART 1 and PART 2 below first

Wesley started to run and ran into the schools compound eventhough policemen tried to stop him. He had gone half insane and dotty and wished that this was all a dream, he looked back but Mr Heah was gone. He walked into Mr Heah's office and heard Mr Siaw and Miss Chang talking. Both of them were prattling aimlessly about raising llamas in Finland. But it got serious when Miss Chang asked Mr Siaw,
"so you really think it was Madam Yeoh [the principal] that killed those students? I thought it was Madam Chin."
"Think about it, why would Madam yeoh want to kill them when she lives on their fees", replied Mr Siaw.
"I dont know, I think it's really weird. We better go before people get suspicious"
"ok! so call you tonight?", Mr Siaw said with a wink.
They left the room and Wesley decided to check Madam Yeohs office for clues. When he arrived, he tried to open the door but DARN! it was locked. He heard someone about to come out, he ran behind the office desk and waited. Friction of the floor and shoes made sucking sounds and they were in rhythm with his heartbeat. It was Puan Syamala! With her powdered face, she could pass of as a ghost just hanging around. He sneaked into Madam Yeoh's office abd decided to check the surveillance camera tapes. While searching in the dark, he felt strings, strings almost like hair. He picked it up and it was Afiq's head!

He almost fainted but her gathered up enough strength to dart out but was caught by Pn Syamala.
"Wesley, what's going on? I does not like this at all", said Pn Syamala.
Immediately she suspected wesley to be behind the killing!
"Wesley", she said, "I'm going to ave to report this. Whatever you're doing to your classmates doesnt look nice"
"Bbu..t..pe..please...let..let...me..explain", uttered Wesley.
"No", but then he saw Mr Heah, lurking in the corner with a knife, stained with blood dripping from its blades end. When Mr Heah caught them looking, he hurriedly replied "i found it in the toilet!"
But it was too late, Mr Heah ran at Pn syamala with the knife and stabbed her - Wesley witnessed it and ran as fast as he could and hid in the girls toilet. "OH MY GOD, why would he do that!", Wesley screamed in his brain.

He waited till it was silent and wondered how many people had already died- why?!
But he knew Wesley saw him out of love he just couldnt take wesleys life just yet. Wesley ran to the carpark and saw Cho Chia's car engine running, he opened the door only to find Cho Chia dead with blood splattered all over the windows. All over his hands were cuts spelling 'welsey' 'wesley'. He heard a faint sound of the piano playing so he rushed towards the piano but as he was nearing it, it abruptly stopped. The 3am wind sent chills down his spine and a glimmer caught his eye. Wooi Nian lied dead on the piano-another one...gone. The white keys on the piano were decorated by dots of blood. Some how, just like Kino, Wesley heard music - the song of death. Sobbing like a baby he just fell on the floor, giving up.
He noticed something behind the piano, a hand! On the hand he saw a bracelet engraved
'SL♥ SL'. He knew Soo Lip had drifted towards the obscure.
'why everyone but me! what does Mr heah want from me' he screamed in his head, who wasn't dead, who was the next victim when suddenly he remembered Yee Yean was absent- Yee Yean was at home! Immediately he dialled Yee Yeans number while looking for a place to hide. The phone line was dead. As he redialled, yee Yean's Body hung down right infront of him...smiling.
No no! it couldnt be! What is going on! He felt a tap. A cold hand crept over his neck and a voice said, "Wesley, we will be forever together. We will die together and spend eternity together. I love you Wesley. I ♥ you very much"
"Who could it be?", he thought.
Then, the scent of Mr Heahs cologne spread through the air and reached Wesleys nose...

To be continued...

2008-08-25T17:01:00.002+08:00

SPM NIGHT

READ PART ONE BELOW FIRST.

part 2

"Well Wesley, if you know where he is, please tell me. his parents are very worried. you can go now"
As Wesley turned around, he swore he saw Mr Heah's face plastered with a subtle smile. Wesley shrugged it off and went to find his classmates- maybe they knew something he didnt. To his surprise he found Ivan's school tie -SOAKED IN BLOOD! But after further inspection, he realized it was just ink -ALOT of red ink. WOW! why would someone do that to Ivan, thousands of questions rushing through his head! He quickly climbed the stairs to his classroom and approached Nicholas to ask him if he knew anything about what happened to Ivan.
Nicholas was shivering and appeared pale, he uttered, "IiiiVaaannn...isss...Hung in...the Janitors closet"
Wesley rushed to the janitors closet and in his mind he kept telling himself it cant be. its not true. It wasn't until he smelt the stench and snowy white feet dangling down defying gravity. Ivan was gone - forever. Wesley broke down in tears attracting a crowd!
"There there Wesley, its ok. You better go back to class", said a sobbing Mr Heah.
His hands seem to be rubbing too much and it lingered on other parts of his body.

Wesley quickly got up and went to class quickly to find Nicholas. His feet seem to be dragging him and when he found Nic, he collapsed in his arms with many people witnessing it. Cho Chia, Christopher and Chou Yong gathered around to comfort Wesley. They all rolled their eyes because they thought that crying was a very sissy thing to do. Suddenly, Lin Kai came in class and told Nicholas that Mr Heah wanted to see him. Again?! he thought, what's up with him? He's starting to creep me out!

Wesley was having a conversation with his classmates when Johnny came in screaming "Nic is dead! Nic...OMG...Mr Heah! " and ran off before anyone could ask him anything. Mr Heah seemed to be wiping some liquid on his pants while in a daze.
"Mr Heah, where's Johnny? He said something about you and something about Nic being dead..sir" asked Wesley in panic. Surprisingly, Mr Heah was very calm and whispered comforting words to Wesley.

Wesley was walking to class when he heard a whimper coming from an empty classroom. Without hesitation, he kicked open the door, but all he could see was piles and piles of newspaper! And he heard a voice, "Wes..Wesley...It's...it's..me..jo...Joh..Johnny...". He followed the voice which slowly trailed off. And there he saw Johnny with blows to his head, bad bruises and laying in a pool of red thick blood. He told Wesley that he was attacked from behind and he couldnt see the attackers face but he smelt strangely like Mr Heah's cologne. Johnny somehow said that there was a witness who escaped...Lin Kai.

While dialing 911, Wesley searched every corner of the school to find that long lean figure. When he went to the toiler, the was Lin Kai brutally killed along with some of his friends, Christopher, Alex, Chou Yong and Melvin- All dead! All their faces were drowned in toilet bowls in different cubicles and on their bodies were colourful glitter. Wesley couldn't take it, it was too overwhelming, all his friends...dead - He blacked out.

By the time he woke up, he could see policemen everywhere and almost every student was evacuated. He saw Mr Heah standing in the distance looking at the school while talking to a policeman. All Wesley wanted to do was to get home because every living soul in the school is now a suspect. Mr Heah noticed Wesley and shot him a glance and started walking towards him and Wesley noticed Mr Heah wearing a familiar watch- Chee Chiang's watch! Wesley tried to evade him and kept walking because when Mr Heah was near, he could smell the smell of the halls of hospitals emitting from him...

2008-08-25T15:57:00.002+08:00

Mabel and Honey's version of PROM NIGHT
you use our spoof, we'll sue you. COPYRIGHT BITCHES xD

SPM NIGHHT

PART 1

One dark gloomy night, one day before SPM, Wesley was at McDonalds watching a football game...alone. With eyes glued to the TV, this innocent and ignorant being didn't know what fate had plan for him. In the shadows, something lurked, watching his every move...but he was to ignorant to notice. The eyes of the shadows followed his every sigh, every blink and every twist. The shadow crept closer and closer and Wesley felt hot breath near his neck. Reluctantly, his muscles move and collide as his pupils dilated and adrenaline rushed from his head to toe, then BAM! The table nearby fell. It brought him back to earth, they body he felt behind him was just his harmless loving teacher, Mr Heah.
"wesley, I never knew you were a football fan", Mr Heah asked tapping Wesleys shoulder.
"Hey Sir, Come and join me", as Wesley gestured to Mr Heah.
They both enjoyed the match till 4 am when Mr Heah Suggested that Wesley go home and get some sleep before the exam and wesley agreed. Mr Heah didn't take his eyes off wesley, like how a cat looks at a mouse. Wesley drove home and Mr Heah watched and gave him a grin before he himself drove to his regular life.

"Bringgg!" the school bell alarmed! Wesley just walked through the gates and ran as fast as he could to the hall for his SPM exam which was just about to start. He halted when he saw Mr Heah sobbing all by himself near the lockers.
"Good luck for your exam Wesley. You better hurry. I told the examiners to wait for my favorite student", Me heah said with a wink.
Wesley hurried down the hallway but his mind still wondering about Mr Heah. The exam started and he scrambled to his seat and as soon as his bottom touched the chair, the examiner said "YOU MAY START NOW".
Almost immediately cause it must have been immediately because Wesley didn't even puck up his pencil, Mr Heah screamed his name!

But it was only a dream; he scrambled out of bed and rushed to school but everything he dreamt seem to be coming true-Deja Vu! He trotted down for breakfast, expecting the same old milk and cereal but he has a visitor, the last person he expected to see! It was Ivan! He had come over to celebrate the victory of their favorite team and about a dream he had about a psycho killer trying to stab him in the chest. They decided it was too late to carry on the discussion in the house and decided that it would be better to start their journey in school. Their laughter turned into fear as they both suspected eyes burning holes in them. Mr Heah was i the car next to him. Driving at walking speed, he laughed maniacally and Wesley together with Ivan shrugged.

They reached school in the nick of time and ran to the hall just like Wesley's dream, Mr Heah was sobbing all by himself near the lockers. To his horror he hugged Ivan really tightly and blanked out. He wokr up in the exam hall. Someone had strategically placed him at his table...but who? How? His eyes frantically searching for Ivan, but he was no where in sight, shockingly in his hands he saw a note saying 'see me' signed by Mr Heah. He got up, all dizzy and made his way to Mr Heah's office by the deserted corridor. As he was dragging himself it was as if a force was pulling him and he just turned the knob of Mr Heah's office, he heard a sexy-saxophone jazz like music with the cooling effect from the air cond.
"Wesley, sit down, I have some bad news to tell you", said Mr Heah gesturing to the chair opposite him, "you see Wesley, Ivan has gone missing. He went to the toilet during his exam and never cam back. Do you have any idea where he is?"
Wesley gasped and immediately thought of places where Ivan could be hiding, could it be in the toilet? Janitors closet? Where? WHERE?!

to be continued...

2008-08-21T22:20:00.003+08:00

Listen up, this is something that seriously bugs the hell out of me
UNLIKE MANY PEOPLE
I actually USE the status signal thingy on MSN
So if I'm BUSY
and you say HI
and I dont feel like replying BECAUSE I'm busy
DONT KEEP FUCKING BUGGING ME
or when I start to reply ONE WORD answers

The bottom line is:
Unless youre
1. May
2. Ranj
3. Ben (aka Bunny #9)
4. Jessica
5. Ivan
6. Nav
7. Mabel
8. Kesh
9. Mahesh
10. MY Sis Natasha

IM NOT GONNA REPLY

geez

2008-08-21T16:00:00.001+08:00

BRACES ARE OFFICIALLY OFF!

PUBLIC SPKEAING COMPETITION IS OFFCIAL OFF ):

sad eh

2008-08-21T02:20:00.001+08:00

Im proud of this edit.It's one of the best ive done.

2008-08-19T23:06:00.001+08:00

2008-08-19T17:12:00.002+08:00

Tagggedd by EIVANNE(who refuses to accept the fact that THAT is his other 3rd name)

Three names you go by :
1. Honey
2. Han
3. Haneesha

Three screen names you have had :
1. Honey
2. +++Honey+++
3. Haneesha

Three physical things you like about yourself :
1. My ass LOL (sings, whatchugonnado with all that junk, all that junk, inside your trunk...)
2. My...uhr...eyes?
3. My uhr, feet?

Three physical things you DONT like about yourself :
1. My height
2. My weight
3. My glasses wearingism

Three parts of your heritage :
1. Mongolian
2. Pakistani
3. Punjabi

Three things that scare you :
1. Death
2. BUGs! esp roaches! I scream..like a girl man!
3. SPM :

Three of your everyday essentials :
1. Handphone
2. Bed
3. Water

Three things you are wearing now :
1. School uni SHirt
2. School Uni Skirt
3. Specs

Three of your favourite bands or musical arts :
1. Katy Perry
2. Ashlee Simpson (she cant sing, she cant dance, but she got some pretty good tracks)
3. The Script

Three of your favourite songs (right now) :
1. The Man Who Cant Be Moved - The Script
2. You're so gay-Katy Perry
3. Closer-Neyo

Three things you want in a relationship :
I dont want a relationship at this point.

Three physical things about the preffered sex that appeals to you :
1. HEIGHT
2. shoulders
3. smile

Three of your hobbies :
1. Sleep
2. eat
3. YOGA

Three things you wanna do really badly right now :
1. Sleep
2. Study
3. Finish Script

Three carreers you're considering / considered before :
1. Fashion buyer /designer
2. Veterinarian
3. business moghul

Three places you want to go on vacation :
1. Manchester, England
2. Florida/California, USA
3. anywhere in Europe

Three things you want to do before you die :
1. Canada-northern lights
2. Egypt-Pyramids
3. Italy

Three ways that you are stereotypically a girl/guy :
1. I worry about how I look sometimes
2. I care about being hygenic...all the time
3. I scream when theres a bug :(

I tag
Anyone (:
(kesh, U HAVE TO DO THIS. bwahaha!)

2008-08-18T06:30:00.000+08:00

There's something wrong with me
and I dont mean that in a good way.
I finally managed to write my script last night, and sure, it's not exactly the best thing in the world because I was heavily influenced by medication, but it's not bad.
I took my medicine, and decided to sleep.
I slept pretty early last night, by 11.30pm i was K.O-ed.
Thank god for medicines that make you sleep.
And just my luck, thunder woke me up.
At 2.34am I woke up because of that bastard thunder
And being in this insomniac phase that I am in, I couldn't sleep back
And I expected to fall asleep by at LEAST 4am but nope I was still awake
and my flu got worse. My flu isnt those normal ones you know, its those irritating leaky ones ==
I have tissues all over my room, YAY GERMS!
So, tossing and turning, and tossing summore, my mind was awake.
I hate having insomia. I had it last year, and it's not a fun thing to have!
Like Calvin said, everyone claims to have insomnia, YOU DONT KNOW WHAT INSOMIA IS.
this is insomnia. I cant fall asleep and if I do, and ter-wake up I cant sleep back.
Ive hardly slept since Wednesday.
Oh gosh.
So my mom woke up right, and I was awake before she actually woke me ~~and that's really unusual!~~ I told her my lack of sleepness and she said I shouldn't go to school. So, I think it's for the better anyway. I have a physics talk thing today, I just msged Ivan about it, but I haven't gotten a reply yet... If he can pick me from my place and we go gether gether, GREAT if not, Ill ask my mom to send me there. I mean, I cant miss this talk la.
So after msging Ivan, I went down to have milk with panadol and Clarines (is that how you spell it?).
Milk = Magensium = sleeping properties? + Clarines= gorggy-ness + panadol
I still cant sleep.
It's approximately 6.44am
And this sucks so bad. I need my sleep. I can die if I dont get it wei! Seriously. ~~Die of exhaustion + stess + lack of sleep + flu.~~
well, at LEAST my script it done.
Oh Ivan, please reply my sms :(
And everyone who's reading this, if there's anyone
please pray I get better soon! by wednesday the latest!
I cant be all flu-ish and groggy when I speak.
Instead of saying a very good morning Ill probably be like
I Ab veby gob motbing...
I CANT SOUND LIKE THAT

Love from the insomniac,
Honey.

2008-08-17T16:13:00.001+08:00

Remember how I didn't want my immune system to fail me?
Ding ding ding ding
It has.
I have
a flu
a fever
a sorethroat

Awesome right?

First It was just the insomnia, now it has morphed into this.
I need sleep. I need rest. I need to relax. But can I?
Nooooooooooooo.
I have:
Sejarah to complete
Add Math to complete
My script to write
Physics talk to go for
Editiorial stuff to complete

OH LORD SHOOT ME
:\
It always happens, the time that I need to be the well most, is the time I get the sick most. ==

So now, groggy and unable to concentrate, I;ve decided to blog.
I think maybe the glare of my computer screen will keep me awake? or wake me up?
Because I feel sooo groggy (damn medication) that I can and actually am about to drop dead and die, but I know if I sleep now, I can't sleep at night. gosh. gosh. gosh.

WHY LAAA

Sometimes I think the non-existant god hates me.

2008-08-15T22:26:00.000+08:00

The stress is on.
Today I was on this BM website la ~~(yes, I use the Internet to study)~~ and they CONVENIENTLY put how many days there is left for SPM.
87 people.
EIGHTY-SEVEN FRIGGIN DAYS.
Oh-my-god
That's like FAST
I never knew it was so near, so, I have been preparing, but somehow after my birthday, it seems a whole lot nearer. Just thinking about the day is making me nervous.
and Ive been having panic attacks and I have alot going on right now so I have the right to have a panic attack and meltdowns.
Nav said I needed to talk to someone, but I dont think that'll help, I shall instead, blog about it.
Ok, so here it goes, It's gonna be long and all of you dont have to read it.
And you're probably gonna think I'm some screwed up person but, I told ya, YOU DONT HAVE TO READ IT

SPM is so near, omg, I cant believe the months just flew. It's like, where did the year go? I feel prepared and not prepared at the same time. I want to study but nothing goes it. I feel blank. I have insomnia, i cant sleep, my mind is always awake. Thinking. Going through things. and Ive gotten to a stage of like, when I think of something and i dont know the answer I have to find out what it is-even if its something like what is biochemical oxygen demand or why to peoples eye colour change when they grow old. My curiosity has gotten the best of me. I want to badly to be the top in my school, be my schools valedictorian, I mean, how often can one say that they are a valedictorian. And now I'm so close to it and yet also so far. I have also my parents to please, my sister to beat (sorry sash xD ) and myself to please. I can't imagine result day, I dont want to be sad, I don't want to regret. I want to be proud of what I got, because I know whatever I did, whatever I got, I tried my best. Other than studies, school is a total waste of time now. I am soo not 100% prepared for my trials, I mean, Ive finished some but there's still a few things left to cover. I'm in the editorial board and I'm not complaining, I love it but it's stressful coz we have a deadline and we also have to do the cover, talk to the printers, take pics, edit them. phew. And I hate my freakking weight, I think due to sitting alot and studying i've become a more passive person. I think i've loaded on a few pounds, well-at least it will be lost after spm. Another thing is that fact that was some ass on a forum who called me ugly. And you know, it's ok if someone calls u ugly once or twice but he kept harping on it ==. COMMMON. I try so hard to look at the positive. And BAM. this, I try so hard to not let it get to me. But, it does sometimes. In other news [felt like saying this], I also have this anemic + lock jaw thing going on. The doctor tot that the lockjaw was influenced by the anemia but it's still going on after 1 month of iron tablets. So, If it still happens after this second month ends, I'll have to get an x-ray [which will shorten my life by seconds, OMG] and I will be refereed to a specialist. It's scary because, I dont know what if it's serious? You can never be too sure. I volunteered myself for the SPCA public speaking competition-I really hope I win, that way I get to see Khan [for those of you who dont know Khan was a kitten I saved from death and nursed him back to health (with the help of the veterinarian of cozzzz] and with a heavy heart gave him to the SPCA. I miss him so much. Oh gosh, I sometimes still cry when I think of him even though he's been gone since May. He took a piece of my heart la, now that place is empty] and I think that if i win I'll probably donate the prize money (like 60% of it) to the SPCA. and the other 40% will go to me. I know, selfish of me right, but Im totally broke! On top of the "oh I'm trying to win" thing I also have writers block because of this stress. Phew. gosh. Someone help me! I have mixed feelings for spm, I forgot to mention that, im sure we all do. Sometimes Im like, "FUCK THIS EXAM! LETS GET IT OVER WITH" and mostly im saying stuff like "oh shit. I wish I had MORE TIME ". SO yeah, So dont blame me if im stressed. If I dont get my sleep, Ill go to a doctor for sleeping pills : I cant afford to get sick now. Please, immune system, dont screw up now.

The end.

2008-08-14T01:37:00.000+08:00

I never understand what;s up with the world intentionally bringing other people down
Ok, so I know I'm not exactly the prettiest, tallest, thinnest girl around, but hey, I live.
People who go on judging others just based on looks are really mean.
If im Ugly, SO WHAT?
If shes pretty, SO WAHT?
not like the world is a worse/better place just because of that you know.
I think the future is gonna be a really shallow place and that's really saddening.
Common people, let's not be so quick to judge others before we can truly judge ourselves.

2008-08-13T14:42:00.000+08:00

My aunty visits
if youknowwhaddaimean
==
and the painkillers are finished
NOOOO

2008-08-12T19:04:00.000+08:00

There are many times in my life when I dont appreciate how good I have it.
I have the best parents in the world, and they're always supporting me no matter what. I think most of the time I forget this and I have a tendancy to always look at the glass half empty rahter than half full. No matter how silly my dreams are, they always encourage me to persue it, because, that's where you start. A dream. A dream sparks everything.
I've been wanting to do up my bedroom, because it's rectangular right and I absoultely hate it, well, now I do. There's nothing I can do with it because of the positions of th fan and bla and bla. And they promised me after SPM that they'll do up my room and I was thinking maybe just some new pieces of furniture and yada yada yada. But my mom told me that they're gonna get an interior designer just to do up my room. HOW AWESOME IS THAT?! I guess, it's not the big things like a car but a small thing like this that really tocuh your heart.

Mom, Dad,
I know you're probably never gonna read this but please know that I really love you and you're the best parents I could ask for. And I appreciate you guys every second of everyday. And I know you guys work hard to let me live this rockstar spoilt rich kid who gets everything she wants lifestyle. Thanks.

Sash,
you're a irritating pest, but you're my sister. I HAVE to love you. JOKES. love u loads too!

well, yeah. That's about it. I just wanted to share with everyone and hope that everyone appreciates their family (:

2008-08-11T11:12:00.000+08:00

Ok, people, listen up
If ever you have a zit
and you want to get rid of it
DO NOT USE DETOL ON YOUR FACE
This is advice, PERSONALLY from me
I had this zit and I used Detttolll on it and like it dried up my skin so bad its peeling from different places + redness and I look like a friggin diseased person

SO TAKE IT FROM ME

DETOL + FACE = BAD

2008-08-08T21:58:00.000+08:00

Today
I will sleep well
Why? Because I followed by dad on his Penang Hash House Harries 08.08.08 run
OMG
:
Now those of you who know me, know that I am an anemic stamina-les person ~~that rather sleep than even walk to the kitchen when Im starving.~~
My dad told me and said it was an EASY run.
easy for them == THEY LIED
So it was at botanical gardens, all the way up the pondan trail
and higher
and higher
and higher
: and it was like friggin STEEP
IT WAS WORSE THAN STAIRS!
And you know I went like 3/4 up and was practically DYING.
There was one point when I couldnt breathe. No exaggeration here, it's like oxygen wasn't enough.
and my mom said I looked terribly pale :
bllooody anemia :
So you know, my parents were worried, BUT I CARRIED ON!
I went up, rested went up.
And there was this dog from the nearby restaurant who has STAMINA WEI!
So freakkin cute!
Black and white and all spoottty! So I named her (i think its a her) On Spot :D
Half way when I was having my OMG I CANT BREATHE thing the dog waited on for me :D
Anyways, I went up up up up
and thn was so happy
WHEE DOWN
and it was kinda cool. Steep. But cool.
There was one point that there was no trail but BILLIONS of rocks *exaggeration
and we had to cross over with the rock and rope and bla bal bla
And I was so happy
WHEE WERE GOING DOWN
but it ended : we had to go up again
and guess who we saw taking a breather...ON SPOT!
Turns out she was there waiting for us!
whee!
So another sleep slope
bloody two hills man!
I SURVIVED
thn it was all down from there.
And we ended up in youth park, and walked back to the site
phew
my SISTER was supposed to wait and tag with me but she DESSERTED me
--
But it was good. Im pooped out
Im gna sleep in a while!
whee
Awesome run
I feel thin-er already
ok, maybe not
xD
still. xD
This is gna sound so wrong: GO TO THE PONDAN TRAIL :D

2008-08-02T17:03:00.000+08:00

Ok, I know all of you will think this is a gay post but let me talk to you about my OBSESSIONS.
aka
Celeb Crushes.

I used to have a seriously sick crush on Draco Malfoy (aka Tom Felton)
And he's so freakking hot!
Like seriously!
And it simmered down and stuff coz I had other things to concentrate on and I was just browsing online and BAM I found a tom felton pic on perez hilton and i was like "hmm, he ain't looking to bad"

AND OMFG, HE'S HOT AGAIN!

And I managed to find his own youtube account
and the boy can SING

oh, how I go head over heels for a boy with an accent.

*falls*
I mean, IT SOUNDS SO AWESOME-LY sexy!
Give me a brit ANYDAY
:D
Or something with an accent
I want him to serenade me

*jumps around aimlessly*

THE BOY's GOT ABS

yummy yummy yummy
LOL

and and and

HE SINGS TOO!
AND HE's FREAKKKING tall.
Gotta love the tall folk.
Tall = awesome!

I know it's totally lame about me, but i HAD to tell someone and since no one would listen *sad* I decided to blog about it. teehee

He wrote this song weeiii!
* so impressed *

2008-07-30T23:32:00.000+08:00

I wonder how, I wonder why

Written: All by me [Haneesha] bitches. Copy right, take any, I screw your ass.

I may be a drama queen

but at least I'm not a bitch

You always keep tearing me down

These wounds I have to stitch

Why I wonder

How I live

Surrounded in this so-called bliss

Hurting, bleeding from the inside

The pain it never seems to die

Slowly and steady everyday

Gathering up along the way

Hitting me with hard blows

Left and Right-that's how it goes

I wonder how

I wonder why

Were we put on this earth to suffer and die

Excruciating all the time

Sanity-I cannot find

Going out of my fucking mind

I wonder how

I wonder why

If there's ever a bright blue sky

If it's all some crazy lie

I wonder if I have a purpose

I wonder why it can't be seen

I wonder if I'll ever leave

Runaway

forget my past

Die pretty while living fast

Leave this place

where I feel so unjust

Screaming out

I'm letting loose

Tie me down?

I refuse

I don't care what you say

I do things MY WAY

There's not changing that

So you better make it a well-known fact

Haneesha is

Who Haneesha be

And that's forever how it is perceived.

2008-07-29T15:46:00.000+08:00

Ok, so I haven't exactly been blogging

because nothing interesting has happened lately.
THis is gonne be a random post. Ignore the scattered thoughts.

Yes, my life a boring (note the emphasis on BOHring)

It's the holidays, and yes, I SHOULD be studying right now, but I haven't. I'm so bored of studying, and forcing myself isn't gonna make anything go IN. Yaknowwahtimsaying?

so, here I am.

Bored.

sleepy.

And I've lost my appetite!

I KNOW! isnt that just scary? I'm just not hungry. And im the person that really LOVES food. And now, I can't finish a plate of fried rice

*gasps in horror*

I don't know what's up with me...haish

And, lets see, what else?

Ive been UBER sleepy

I think my body is going "Honey, U have to study or die." So it has decided to DIE. :

I cleaned by room

THANK GOD

I feel so CLEAN. it was too cluttered, I guess that's why I oculdnt study? Idk man, I still dont feel like studying. wait, does anyone ever?

*bangs head on laptop*

Goddamnit

Weelll, on the plus side, I got my own song

LOL

I know all of you are probably jealous-dont be kayh, dont be :P HAHA

Credit goes to Rudy for that.

NYEH

And I was online just now just randomly browsing through pictures on deviantart and I came across a mushroom BOOB with TITS

SERIOUSLY

Its a mushroom shaped BOOB

WTH

Well, I got nothing else to post. sorry for the random stupid silly post. It happens

2008-07-26T15:11:00.000+08:00

Omg. Lets not support KFC ever!

Watch more videos at KentuckyFriedCruelty.com.

2008-07-25T17:02:00.000+08:00

Gotta love miley and not Chin-ASs girl. seriously, her chin looks like an ass. seems like theyre letting ANYONE in disney these days --

2008-07-24T10:32:00.000+08:00

BM LISAN

Ok, today that's what happened. I had my BM Lisan. And it's by ministry folk.
So you can imagine, I was nervous as hell-which is kinda normal for me. Those who have debated and/or have done public speaking with me would know how I get. For those who don't, allow to explain:

Stage one:
Waking up in the morning, wanting to go through stuff but say no. Clear my mind, stomach like jello, I shower have breakfast ( what i CAN eat) and leave for my destiny

Stage two:
In school or the place of my destiny, I infect everyone with my nerves and tell people what I know. You know, exchange thoughts and ideas and views and INFORMATION.

Stage three:
Walking around or standing up. I cant sit, if i sit my tummy will explode and butterflies will come fluttering out, so I stand and walk.

Stage four:
Toilet.
Yes, I know this is really weird, but being in the toilet before a speaking event helps me, I go. walk around, calm myself-it's basically a place wehre I can collect my thoughts and organize them and say "YO BITCH, U CAN DO THIS. YOUVE DONE IT BEFORE. NO BIGGIE"

Stage five:
Relaxation + Confidence
aka SUCCESS

LOL

And stage one to stage five occurs within a time frame of 20 minutes.
Interesting right?

ANYWAYS, after completing stage one to five. I usually dont read anything or go through anything and I clear my mind outta everything and be neutral.
I got my topic, abt langkah langkah to improve the quality of water, so, I wasn't prepared for it but I knew somewhat about it. I read about pencemaran Sungai, I mean, sungai is where we get our sumber air mainly. Got my points, walked around and practiced. I mean, I have to organize my points.
I got called in the room. I wasn't nervous already. I was just saying to myself *dont say so...*
I have this bad habit of speaking BM and when I'm done i say "so..."
==
I gave the forms and my IC and stood there waiting to be asked to sit down. and they told me to sit, they looked at my IC and was like
"haneesha...(but these people can't see the H somehow so my name is pronounced as Hanisa), tinggal di, Jalan eDg...Ed..."
and i fnished it for her
"Jalan Edge*****. "
"Haneesha datang ke sekolah bagaimana?"
"Ibubapa"
"oh ok...Mengapa haneesha pilih sekolah sri pinang" (or something like that)
"Ini tahun pertama saya di sekolah ini. Saya rasa Guru di sekolah in lebih mahir dalam mengajar and kelas-kelas lebih kecil-oleh itu setiap pelajar mendapat lebih tumpuan daripada cikgu dalam setiap subjek" ( or something like that)
"oh, ok. Saya baca soalan"
She read the question and went silent.
So I asked
"boleh saya bermula?"
Shes like "boleh"
So, I spoke, I basically said that:

Firstly, We have to tighten and enforce the law daari segi perindustrian dan segi individu.what i meant by perindustrian is that, with perindustrian theres pollution, and they usually throw their sisa toksik into the water or rivers which are our sumber air, so to curb them we have denda. Dari segi Individu, I meant that when theres perindustrian, there will also be migrasi penduduk antara negeri dan nergara and dengan migrasi, there's bound to be more rubbish and prolly they'll throw it in the sea or river.

Secondly, because of all the migrasi like i said, the people would need a special place to throw rubbish, so to avoid all sorts of things being thrown in our water sources, we should have a specific place for it.

Thirdly, more dams(empangan). Like the air itam dam, the dam water is clean and filtered so, it hindari dari penyakit and u know the water is clean (i mean DUH)

Lastly, more alat penapic air, so that the water is filtered and definately clean can be sourced to homes.

I was done and I kept silent. Prepared for questions and they're like, ok u can go :
I was like Whatthafark, no questions?!
I don't know if it's a good thing or a bad thing. And I was the fastest to finish.

*que horror music*

It could be bad because:
I was totally outta topic that they were wtfark-ed by me and didn't want to torment themselves

It could be good because:
I covered everything and was fluent that there was no need to ask anything extra.

Anyways, that part was over. We got our second topic which is a forum/perbincangan
So, we decided to stick to perbincangan.
The topic was:
"Industri Pelancongan will make lots of profit, discuss."
So we discussed. and went into the room. and talked and talked. Me, Ivan and Chris kinda talked abit but Yee Yean was absolutely silent. And I think he panicked and brain froze or something. So, that was done for, and we came outta the room.

THe oral had finished, wheeee.
We can go home and it was only 9.30am :D
gotta love it
I THINK I did well.
What's ur opinion? leave it on the Tagboard if u have one
mwahs

2008-07-23T07:28:00.000+08:00

Yes, it is 7.31 AM and I'm blogging. Isn't it a wonder why I'm doing so?

Well, it all started on Monday I guess.

You how IM trying to be HEALTHY and do JOGS and junk, well on Monday I think somehow I overdid it. I jog about 3 times a week since July at the Air Itam dam, now most of my non-existant readers would be like, eww, that places is gross- WELL ITS NOT! It's really serene and peaceful and clean. and there's like little turtles (ok, maybe not so little) swimming in the dam and my mom told me she spotted a snake before. Ok, anyways, Ive been tryna go faster and faster each week right to build up my ~~non-existant~~ stamina and I did pretty good this time, and I was proud of myself. Im a yoga/pilates freak and I do these stretches every morning, after I come home from school, before I shower and before bed. They're really simple stretches, nothing too extreme-just destresses me I guess. ANYWAYS, after my jog on monday, I did my usual stretches and showered. My left calf felt abit sore and in my mind i was happy
"whoo, my legs are sore, it's all good"
I mean, you know after a long run when something hurts you feel like u ran? and did something? Well, maybe that's just me... The next day, I didn't go to school and as usual, start of the day with Stretches, and calf felt a bit weird, I ignored it. Maybe it'll last a day or do. It was a very productive tuesday, I studied alot. Good ol' studies. Maybe I didn't study as much as I SHOULD have but hey, at least I studied, gotta give me credit for that. That nght before I slept, my left calf felt, sprained. And now it got to me
"oh shit. this is bad. shouldnt be hurting that bad" and Im a paranoid person. so, many other thoughts went through my mind "what if im cacat, what if it gets worse on thursday, what if I miss my BM ORAL EXAM "

"AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH"

I ran (maybe not RUN la, more of a limping walk, but if I said I walked limp-ly it would sound chun, so for the sake of chun-ness, I will say RUN) to the medicine cupboard downstairs and frantically searched for deep heat cream. You know, for muscle sores. I've torn my ligament before, so sprained muscles- WE'RE PREPARED.

THERE WAS NO DEEP HEAT. it was finished.

*que horror music*

SO, fine, I used the deep heat patch, it was...well weird and I just slept-la.

I dreamt of megan fox dying : Bad bad dream

I cant remember most of it but I remember waking up at night and saying, "megan fox cant die. no, she wont" and sleeping back. so I ASSUMED she died.

MEGAN FOX WILL LIVE ON

that's megan fox btw

I woke up this morning as usual, just chillin on my bed forawhile, breathing, getting my wake-up on, I moved my leg got out of bed, GAHH. the pain. Sometimes, you know, these sprains, when you wake up initially after not using ur legs or that particular muscle for a long time, you get this pain but it'll go after u walk it off? So i tried that and I did my stretches and it still hurt. I decided to have my breakfast first before I showered, and I did. My mom saw my leg and limp and I told her I'd have to walk up to put my bag in class, walk down for IT, walk up for Math, Walk down for physics and bio, walk up for lunch and walk down to go home. This, seemed straineous for my poor poor left calf muscle.

Mom found the calf thingy, brace is it? idk, forgot...WELL ITS 7.45am-Im excused for forgetting.

She managed to find a small teeny weeny packet of deep heat, rubbed my leg with it and put the brace thingy thing on it. She said if there's nothing on today, Id better rest and study at home so that I can go for the oral tomorrow (Thursday). I double checked with Ivan if the oral was tomorrow or today (paranoia) and Now I'm home. Awake, with stuff on my leg.

Front view

Side View

So, now I cant sleep coz I full of breakfast and since I've gotten my wake-up ON I gotta try to get it...off? LOL. idk la. WEll, thats basically it. Sucks man...I cant walk up or down. I think I need a wheelchair ~~(overdramatic much)~~

So, just to IMPROVE my BM for my oral tomorrow, I will now translate it in summary in BM.

Hari Isnin ni, I peigi Jogging, pastu saya balik dan kan buat exercise, Baik tau untk badan. Tapi, selepas I ni Buat senaman saya, kaki saya ni sakit. I tak kisa la, buat apa...babitol. So, I ni, tak peigi sekolah ari Selasa sebab tak ada subjek berfaedah, lebeh baik I ni tinggal kat rumah dan belajak sendiri. Tapi malam ari selasa tu, Kaki saya lebih sakit, I ni nak bubuh ubat tapi dah habis, so I gunala ubat lain. Pagi ari Rabu, kaki saya lebih sakit. Mak kata lebih baik I duduk kat rumah, belajar dan reatka kaki saya ni. Oleh itula, I ni, sekanag di rumah buat semua benda benda ni. Takda kerja lain, kan baaru makan, mana bole tido balik? Kesianje. Babitol kaki ni.

LOL. sorry, decided to ry the slang on.

Think I did good? comment ur opinion in my tagboard. luv yas!

BYE

p/s: Here's an interesting and sweet link

http://today.msnbc.msn.com/id/25797678/?GT1=43001

2008-07-19T01:14:00.000+08:00

15 weird things / habits / little known facts about Me

Tagged by Eivanne

1. I love spicy things
2. I Hate Bugs
3. I have low immunity and im anemic
4. I have an obsession with height
5. I can cook AND bake
6. I laugh too much
7. I tend to ground myself when I feel I have too much fun [weird I know]
8. I've gotten braces twice
9. I will be my schs valedictorian
10. I dont have stage fright
11. I can sing but I get shy
12.I'll be famous when I'm 21 [LOL]
13. I dont know what career Im gonna persue so Im gonna try to parasite of my mom and dad for as long as possible
14. I like tattoos and piercings not because I like to wear my earings but because I like getting pierced.
15. I love animals to death

2008-07-16T19:10:00.001+08:00

I found out I have anaemia :

Isnt that scary? I feel like those sick people walking around with a disease. somehow.

for more info visit:

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Iron_deficiency_anemia

2008-07-04T17:10:00.000+08:00

Let me reflect on how much my life has changed from last year:

Last year, school was a torture. Every morning I didn't want to wake up. It was so depressing walking through those unwelcoming gates. Looking around, smiling in the morning was hardly something I would do, and I would consider myself a generally happy person. Making my way up to the Prefects room (which I wanted to PIMP UP YA'LL), signing in before 7.00 a.m. was a must. rushing to my DUTY. ~~I hated it.~~ I regret ever TRYING out to be a prefect. I didn't make my life any better, in fact it made it worst, but I guess that's why I am the person I am today, I learnt from my MIStakes. The only reason I actually did it was because I wanted to proove to those who looked down upon me, who doubted me, who bitched about me, that fuck you i can do this shit too. Well, anyways, the bell would ring. I didn't want to go in class. I felt like everyone was against me. Studying was an opinion but when you're feeling so demotivated, study all you want-nothing is going in. Hardly people I can relate to in class, there were the few who spoke my language on some level, May, Shu, Steph, Ranj, the rest...not really. There were gangs, obviously, and you couldn't even THINK of trying to join them. Subjects come and go, I'll stare blankly at the board and wonder about how am I gonna survive. The only person who kept me sane was May who sat next to me for the whole year. She made me smile *lesbo moment* MAY I LERV YOU. Ranj was awesome too, she'd always used to bail class with me :) I think she knew what was going on with me. RANJ I LERV YOU MY LESBO Break time, after school, activities, duties. My life was like a sad pathetic routine. The weekends I wanted to get out. I was a teenager, no one understood me, what can I say. Mid year results, SCREWED UP BADLY. Had no mood to study for my end of year. I wanted my life to end. ~~I hated living.~~ every second was pure torture in my mind. Mentally I made it worse, Physically I abused myself. After my finals I gave up 100% percent. I was depressed. I thought of death every morning as soon as i wake up. I would not really smile. I wasn't in the mood to do anything, eat, sleep, tv, go out. It got to a point where my mom had to force me to go out. Dark eyeliner, low self esteem- I was an emo kid. I must say last year, my self esteem and my confidence dropped to a level so low that I am still building it up...
I told my parents I didnt want to go back there. Just thinking of it I could start (and sometimes DID) cry. They knew the only solution would be to change my school, they suggested CGL, MGS, SGGS and I said no to all of them. I didnt want to be in a Govt school. I had enough of crap. Uplands? Dalat? no... THere were even options of going to KL for boarding or something. Finally, I suggested Sri Pinang. It had a reputation of being a spoilt-rich-kid-school-with-no-standard. but i didnt have a choice anymore, my last resort. My dad, mom and I went to check out the school, we had a whole tour, I fell in love. my parents said, ok, and when they did, i felt a change. I was happier. New friends, new life, new everything, starting fresh.

My new school:
I remember the first day, I was scared, nervous, gosh, I entered the hall. All new faces. gosh gosh gs oh. I got settled in. Everyone was so friendly, the first week was hard and LONELY but hey, the teachers were good. and finally that willing to learn haneesha came back. I never said, I dowanna go. I made some great friends! And I love all of you guys to death! You have no idea how much I appreciate going to Sri Pinang...
:)
BEST CLASS IN THE WORLLDDDDDD

First Row (sitting), L-R: Chris, Mabel, Eivanne, Mr Siaw, Woof, Me, Nic

Second Row: Cze Yang, Johnnny, cho chia, Lin Kai, WESSLEEEYYY, Chiang, Alex, Chou Yong

Absentees: SOO LIP AND YEE YEAN ==

Im a wayy happier and nicer and better and gooder person now.
going to school is a joy, instead of a torture, i have no problems with it.
Sings in a bad tune:
WE ARE STUUUUUUDENTS OF SEKOLAH SRI PINANGGG
*ok, that's about all the lyrics I know for my sch song*

It's good sometimes to reflect on how your life was and is gonna be. It makes you think and appreciate life more. :)

2008-07-03T16:40:00.000+08:00

Hi, my name is: Honey

Never in my life have I been: time travelling

High school: is a happy torture

When I'm nervous: I walk around alot...and talk fast.

The last song I listened to was: You're so gay by katy perry

If I were to get married right now my best man/maid of honor: Patrick dempsey that guy from made of honour!

My hair is: an animal named Mic who is alive living on my head

When I was 5: I was awesome-er thn i am now

Last Christmas: I gave u my heart? the very next day, u gave it away. this year, to save me from tears, ill give it to someone special.

I should be: studying. OOPSIEEE

When I look down I see: my tummy. damnit!

The happiest recent event was: going for the spa treatment thingy. oohmmmm shakalakalakala

If I were a character on 'Friends' I'd be: Rachel, spoilt, hot and rich :P hahaha

By this time next year: I'd be thin...i hope

My current gripe is: trying to do as many things possible in my youth

I have a hard time understanding: physics and add math

There's this girl I know that: kissed another girl and liked it...wait that girl is me ==

You know I like you when: I flirt. ALOT. but i do tht with everyone. OOPs

If I won an award, the first person I would tell would be: Mommy

Take my advice: nothing will come of nothing

The thing I want to buy: are aldo shoesss! I have a shoe obsession

I plan to visit : Shia Labeouf <3

If you spent the night at my house: you;d never want to leave

I'd stop my wedding if: my groom isnt a celebrity ;) LOL

The world could do without:Morons making surveys like these

I'd rather lick the belly of a cockroach than: seriously, I'd do ANYTHING but lick the belly of a roach. wth man. *shudders*

Most recent thing I've bought myself: A life. LOL. oh wait, I HAVE NO LIFE.. curses SPM

Most recent thing someone else bought me: A book :D

In the morning I :dowanna wake up...coz i like to sleeeeeeeeeeep

The animals I would like to see flying besides birds are: elephants. hey, dumbo did it right?!

Once, at a bar: I ordered a drink, and they knew i was 17, so i made my sis order it, thn drank it :D

Last night I was: pissed at the thunder keeping me awake.

If I was an animal I'd be: a black leopard. :D mrrreeow

A better name for me would be: Mrs. Shia LaBeouf ;)

Tomorrow I am: going to study...YES.

Tonight I am: going to sleep. DUH.

My birthday is: OVER :(

2008-07-01T23:24:00.000+08:00

HELL YEAH

I KNOW U ALL JEALOUS :P

2008-07-01T15:39:00.000+08:00

another day WASTED
I don't know why my body picked this week to get sick.
I don't enjoy getting sick, it's just that I get sick REALLLLY easily.
At home, everyone is so used to me being unwell that we actually have stock on all the common medications that I take so my doctors visits are well, less frequent.

Let me tell you how easy it is for me to get sick.

If I eat:
Strawberries
White Chocolate
Sour grapes

Ill get a sorethroat.

wth right?

Anyways, it started as a normal common cold on sunday afternoon. But usually it stops after a while but the KILLER cold got worse and it became *horror music* a never ending fuckeduply flu. seriously. and fine. whatever, jsut a cold. I usually go for this jog every sunday evening with my parents but didnt because:
1. IM INVISIBLE and was alone most of the day
2. I wasnt feeling to good annways
I decided that maybe a hot shower will help get rid of this *beep* [has been cenceored due to overlt sensative people] and when I got out of the shower, my throat felt FUZZY. oh whatever. I had ROTI CANAI and FISH CURRY for dinner and at about 10pm I felt lethargic and mum said it'll be better if I took Monday off. Fine, I did. and i was with a fever, flu and sorethroat the whole. and today TUESDAY Im still sick. wth. and i dont feel any better. I cant sleep and i feel so STUFFED. gahh *bangs head on table*

Not only am I sick and most things dont make sense
I HAVE FREAKKIN TRIALS and SPM coming soon
:\
great. just great.

2008-06-29T21:09:00.000+08:00

Sometimes I wonder how stupid has the world become.

tsk tsk

2008-06-24T17:01:00.000+08:00

Now you know what we do in school :)

2008-06-22T18:51:00.000+08:00

So my birthday this year was wayyyyy OTT

I first got a laptop from my parents (my sister got a laptop AND a car ==..but shes older...soo..)

ANWYYAS

thn I got to go to Club Med and since it was my brithday the CHEF made a cake specially for me and the whole staff clapped and claapped from god knows where to my table and sang me a birthday song. :D and i had to drink i glass of wine. WHOO :D

After Club Med,that saturday, I went to Gurney coz I dont knw why but my mom wanted me outta the house. So I decided to get my hair washed for absolutely no reason..and I did.

My hairstylist name was

ELVIS. seriously.

Anywho, I was hanging with Mahesh, david, Aliq(i think) and eventually Kesh. Some people DITCHED ME but hey, who needs em anyways.

I came home right and when I entered my house, Ranj, May, Steph and Alan popped outta nowhere!

Turns out they have been planning with my mom this suprise thing.

So theres my cake. and it was grat catching up with them and eating icing and cake and more icicng and chachos and and making smores and stuff. lol. it was great so a BIG THANK YOU GUYS!

AAAND (yes there's more) I was in time to catch the Hannah Montana concert in 3D!

And it wasnt 3D == I know right now youre like "wtf, haneesha watches hannah montana?!"

No, i just wanted to see how 3D it is.

This is spongebob nude. Anybody wanna guess who drew it? BEAUTIFUL no?

2008-06-21T01:36:00.000+08:00

what happens when you wear foundation badly.

2008-06-20T20:30:00.000+08:00

OMFG! THATS KEIRA'S MOM! SOMEBODY GET THE WOMAN A HAIR DYE JOB AND A PLASTIC SURGEON PRONTO

2008-06-19T23:10:00.000+08:00

My awesome holiday!

Well, we won this trip for two to Club Med Cherating from Volvo and a free use of a Volvo XC90 *getting jealous alex xD * for 7 days. So my parents decided since they won two passes to club med, they might as well bring me and my sis (and pay for us obviously) and drive that awesome car to Kelantan. So-that's exactly what we did. We left on friday. Incase people who don't know what Club Med is, it's this exclusive club that u have to join and be a member of to enter. It cost on average RM800/pernight for a normal room one bed etc

DAY 1&2

Well I dont want to bore my non-existant readers with how I went for the trip to summarize the first 2days it was basically.

Wakeup-bathe-mcD-fetch grama-go Kl-shop-sleep-wake up-shop somemore-sleep-wake up.

DAY 3 onwards

We left KL for Kelantan. The trip was on the windy road and we went on the very scarry supposedly very haunted KARAK HIGHWAY *screams of terror*

and it wasnt that scary. I expected creepy trees and graveayrds or something! But it was like any other highway except for the fact that theres thick fog at night. So, I guess thats when the ghosts come out *i read too many singapore true ghost stories*

We reached kelantan and my mom lived in Kelantan when she was little and it was like a walk down memory lane for her. Loads have changed but she found her standard one school and her kindergarden :D

We thn went to...this...cempedak was it..teluk cempedak. and my gosh, IT WAS GORGEOUS. the sand was white like powder and it was soo soft. and it was CLEAN. CLEAN. omg. compared to the murky grey waters in penang that we have dubbed the ocean, that was HEAVEN. wowwww. We walked abit there and had CHEESY wedges in the KFC near by *24 hours wei*. We decided to find a hotel nearer to club med coz that's where we would be heading the next day. And there were really DODGY hotels in Kelantan. And some have such nice names like Mermaid inn but it looks like a place where someone will kill you while u sleep. and im NOT joking. We settled in this RM950.00 a night room at Eastern Pavillion Holiday Villas. And it was worth every penny. I mean, WE HAD OUR OWN PRIVATE POOL WITH JACUZZI. how more aweosme can it get?

Thn there was a thnder storm and BOOM lightning BLACKOUT. just as we were abt to go to the restaurant for dinner. bloody hell. BUT I SAVED THE DAY by having my supply of snacks, KIT KAT, Famous amos cookies, Dodol. :D Im good. i know. and thn it was NEARING midnight and guess whatt

IT WAS MY BIRTHDAY. So, a special thanks to all who wished me. In order:

Nessa:

Honey! I wanted to be the first to wish you at 12. But i'm quite certain im falling asleep. so just incase i do, Happy Birthday! I hope you have a great day hun. And lots and lots of presents! Love you till infinity. XoXo

Ivan:

Honey!

Happy

17th
Birthday!! :)

Keshav:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY! (insert fancy message here)

May Sheng:

Happy Birthday HONEY! We've officially been through thick and thin for 7 years ( I know, that's long) And we'll keep growing strong (will we grow old, grey and saggy).You're the best bitch I can ask form thanks for having my back no matter how small or stupid a deal it is. You know ive got you too. My girl ;D I love you truckloads. XOXO P.s. have a great time aite? I know you will :)

Ranjini:

Hey, Happy Birthday dear! May God Bless you, may all your wishes cum true, n may u always b happy!

Sarah:

Happy Birthday Honey...sory din wish u on time cuz i fell asleep.. Lolx.. Hv a fantastic day honey! xD

Shu Yong:

Happy Birthday Sweetie!

Stephanie:

Happy Birthday Honey! X) *big gigantic bear hug* Luv Ya! Take care! hehe...

Chee Chiang:

Honey.. Happy birthday! =)

Amirudin:

Happey Buffday =)

May all ur wish come true

Yugesh:

HAPPEE BIRTHDAY!

Have a wonderful day

Nor:

Hi honey, wishing u 'HAPPY BIRTHDAY' May god bless you and give you more happiness throughout your life

Grandma:

Happy Birthday Honey, I love you darling very much. From grandma Z.

Harcharan(don shoot):

Happy birthday

Alexis:

Hey Hun hapie burfday. Enjoy yr holiday thr kays. Once again happy 17th.

Natasia:

Happy bday to you...Muaxxx

Uncle Imtiaz:

Happy birthday 17 onwards to a good life.

Uncle Shaniz:

Happy Birthday! Tried to call u but you didnt answer. Have a great day!

Alex Khoo:

Happy Birthday, honey bunny.

Luvenia:

Hey... Happy Birthday!

Jaeraj:

Hey u, hepi buttday, hehe, em, hepi birthdayyy

Jewel:

Happy Birthday super honey!!! :) :) :)

I had miss calls from Farhan and Nav and Mahesh

Sorry didnt answer was in club med, phone was in the room and i dont think reception is that good either.

Joshua:

Hey there, droppin u a msg to wish u a very happy bday :-)

Mabel:

Hello babe. Happy birthday ;)

Deep:

Hey sexy...Im kinda late but hey dear happy birthday girl... hehe x x

Nav:

Happy bday

Alan [dude]:

Being the first who wishes. why nnot be the last. Happy birthday hun.

Keith:

Omfg...I totally forgot..! Happy belated birthday, Honey!! I'm so sorry for not wishing you, I had credit but I wasnt sure if it was your birthday si u checked my mail for reminders and it was true! may god bless you!

SilveSTAR:

Happy Birthday Honey.......may god bless u and safe u from all evils......tc.....have a wonderful birthday.......=)

Yup.

I was in Club med. GORGEOUS CLUB MED.

I did all sorts of activities, sailing, archery, trapeze, some bounce thing, henna, dancing, drinking, sitting on a train, swimming. and there were alot more activities to do!

During dinner on the 16th the whole staff of club med came and clapped and sang me a birthday song and the chef actually made a cake for me. Vids and pics will be up soon. :D

THANKS EVERYONE FOR MAKING MY BIRTHDAY REALLY AWESOME.

Pics'll be up soon.

2008-06-10T20:24:00.000+08:00

MABEL's AND HONEY's GUIDE TO

WHY WOMEN ARE BETTER THAN MEN?

1. We got Boobs
2. We know how to colour-coordinate ANYTHING
3. We Give birth (lol)
4. We can wear skirts AND pants
5. We can make them (guys and occasionally girls) Beg
6. We can wear make-up (covering zits etc)
7. We can choose from THOUSANDS of dresses
8. We can wear coloured contact lenses without looking like a FAG
9. We make them buy stuff for us and not feel bad
10. We can wear expensive things (like diammmoonnd rings)
11. We shop with the money they earn
12. We don't have grose facial hair that we have to shave nearly everyday
13. We can make up for cheating (by some kissing LOL)
14. We get free drinks at night clubs ( ladies nighhtt)
15. We don't get seduced easily
16. We can look taller by wearing heels (:
17. We don't speak like MELVIN
18. Chromosome has more chance of becoming a FEMALE
19. We don't have to prove we're better coz we are
20. We're more mature
21. We can cry to get our way
22. On dates, guys usually pay
23.We don't have to make the first move
24. We can do any kind of hairstyle
25. It's embarrassing to be under a girl (ranks, jobs...)
26. We don't get turned on DOWN THERE that easily
27. We have self control at a party
28. Guys cant do prostitution and earn well
29. Gigolos have NO BUSINESS
30. We just look fine

The best reply the guys could think of was

"at least we don't bleed once a month"

BOO

Refer to #19

2008-06-04T21:56:00.000+08:00

Ben says:
dont trust u pakis
hahaha

Honey ♥ says:
LOL. I dont trust u Austrians

Ben says:
oh yea wat if i told u im german hah

Honey ♥ says:
same difference?

Ben says:
noooo!!!
austria had hitler and sent him to germany, they accepted... germany had einstein and didnt want him and he went to the USA so there u go
hahah
so clearly austria is smarter than germany
we had mozart... they had wat?
bethhoven? lol

Honey ♥ says:
LOL. I see your point.

2008-06-02T15:50:00.000+08:00

I never tot it would be so hard to give up the little kitten I rescued. It was one of the hardest things I've ever done in my life and I'm not being over-dramatic. I really loved that kitten from the moment I laid eyes on him.

Picture: The second day when he started eating on his own.

I found him at my school, on Tuesday, Christopher told me that there was a half dead kitten behind the school there. And I was basically left in horror. Omg, a poor baby kitten, half dead, suffering! gosh. I needed to save its little life. every single life is worth saving I feel- so after school I rushed to my moms car and asked her if I could take the kitten home. And I remember I was nearly in tears just thinking about him. Chris showed me, his poor little body, so weak he couldn't even stand up! I gently lifted him to my tummy and walked to my cat. His little mews were heard-but I knew it was a plea of help. I took him to the vet, gills of course, and they told me that he had bite wounds, probably from a bigger cat and that it was infected. So, I took him home and that was that. He had some medicines and stuff and it was all good. He refused to eat on the first day and we had to force feed him for energy. He got better and started to move a little, move a little walk a little and all that. He got better and better and started eating ALOT. Trust me, for his little body even I was shocked. I went to the vet for his checkup and the doc was like, I think he has worms. Now, I knew why he was eating so much-it all made sense. Doc gave him a pill and he pooped all the worms out. He got better than he was before. He could run, he could jump and he was as cheeky as ever.

He would run, jump play and I knew he loved us as much as we loved him. sometimes, you just know. He would crawl up on my lap or in the corner of my shirt in the smallest place and cuddle up to sleep. Totally cute! He also would explore places and get stuck. Like, he went under the shoe rack, and couldn't get out and he went behind the door WHEN IT WAS OPEN and couldn't come out. hahah-super cuteness!

Picture: Hiding under the sofa.

Mom wanted me to find a place for him to stay at, get him a good home because we lived in an apartment. It's big la-helllow it's double storey, but it's missing a garden-so with a heavy heart I posted his picture on this website, and a few others. I was kinda glad that no one wanted him. He could be MINE. My itty bitty kitty! Mom said we should give him to the SPCA, so we went on Saturday and I had prepared myself not to cry-I don't enjoy crying, i think it shows that I'm weak, and the SPCA was closed. It looked BAD, like wtf-this-is-the-SPCA bad. We took him home. I kinda tried hating him, like, I HATE U KITTY hate. so that it wouldn't hurt. And on Sunday, I loved him again. He would cuddle and just do the cutest things like sleeping on a slipper. I didn't want to give him up, I couldn't. I loved him too much, these 12 days were priceless. But I knew I had to.

On Sunday was the hardest for me and my sister. especially the evening. I knew in a matter of hours, he would be going...And it hurt me so bad-I don't know how he was gonna take it. My little Khan. I let him do whatever he wanted to. kissed him, hugged him, cuddled him, played with him and it was all bittersweet.

Picture: He slept in front of the bar, regular alcoholic!

When my parents went up for bed, he meowed for attention, i knew he wanted to be cuddled. So i did, I put him on my lap in my sisters room and held on to him for an hour ish. He dreamt. And it was so cute. He moved around, turned, meowed, sniffed, scratched, all in his dreams. At that moment I just wanted to hide him in my room and make sure no one could find him and he'll be with me. I put him in his cage and he woke up. I lay on the floor next to his cage until he slept. I wanted this moment to remember, I wanted him to feel loved and know it. I got up in the morning, well, I didn't exactly sleep early (4am early for you?) and got up at 7. I just didnt want to get up, I knew what was gonna happen. I showered and went down, I saw the little thing playing. My heart sank. I imagined him growing up here, sleeping on my bed, we were gonna be best friends...but...it wasn't happening. Oh why didn't I live in a house... I said my last goodbyes to him, put him in his cage and it was off to school. That was it. The last I saw him. after school, I hoped in my heart, a faint hope, that MAYBE mom didn't give him to the SPCA and she couldn't do it! and he was at home-waiting for me! I went into the car and waited. silently. Waited. thn I asked my mom, the cat? and she said she had given him to the SPCA. :( :( :(

I was on the verge of tears and held it in. I came home and saw my sister, she gave me a hug and that was it, tears jsut started flowing down. He was my little baby, my hope and my joy. the colour in my black and white world. My sis asked me, "whats wrong" and i said " i want my kitten back" and walked up the stairs and straight to my bathroom. And I sat there, crying, silently. I wanted him soo much! I loved him soo much! Even the thought of him not with me and with the SPCA people is killing me. I will survive, but, it's gonna be hard. Everywhere I look now is reminding me of him, and his little things. the cute things he used to do. He was more than a cat, he was family.

To the best kitten in the world. May you find a good home with people who love you as much as I do. If I ever move into a house, you're the first cat I'd adopt again! Love my little Khan, pooper, kitty, b.

2008-05-27T23:14:00.000+08:00

ever wondered how my family would look as the simpsons?

WELL WONDER NO MORE

Awesome innit?:P

2008-05-27T16:36:00.000+08:00

Featured Friends on Friendster:

I really don't get what the big deal abt having yourself or someone else featured on the friendsters featured friends. I mean, they're just some of the people from my long list of friends whom are shown, common, isn't the fact that you're my friend [and i don't approve just ANYONE] on my list a happy thing. Well, I need to explain the reason why some of my friends are on my featured friends

1. Natasha

Natasha is my sister, obviously. So, she MUST be there. and since I look up to her like a role model, she's my NUMBER 1

2. May

May has been in my life since standard 4, and we've shared our bitter sweet moments. Still, after all this time, we're friends-we overcame the best friend curse too :D

May: "Imma bring you as my one and only :)"

3. Kesh

He's there because...we bug the hell out of each other on most days...and it's fun

4. Mahesh

My little god brother! He must be there! After what he did for the prank calling- I feel so aww-ed
*read below for good deeds*

5. Senyor Kane

He's just there coz I don't have the heart to kick him off. I mean, I can't be mean to my once was driver right? [I know he isn't gonna read this]

6. Ivan

Ivan is my schoolmate and we get each other.

example:

[]iVaN[] says:
oh and i saw dat pussywhoserealnameis*beep*'s comment on *beep*s frenster
[]iVaN[] says:
he's like *beep* i *beep* u wit her also
[]iVaN[] says:
hahahahaha
[]iVaN[] says:
dere was also de we must go out wit*beep*also of course
[]iVaN[] says:
i felt like sending heroopsimeanhim a comment "hey bitch, jump off a cliff and fuck off"

so, there you have it.

2008-05-26T02:07:00.000+08:00

dear non-existant readers
if you read my blog, you would know about the prank calls i've been having but thanks to my awesome friend
MAHESH aand his awesome friend JOHN

THE PRANK CALLS HAVE SIEZED

You now may be wondering, how is this so? what has john and mahesh done?
well, they missed call the freaks and sms them until they got sooo pissed they turned off their phone. The digi number was a guy and the hotlink number was a GIRL. yes, i repeat, A GIRL. John even asked that girl out ==

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=F9I1NJJVOtg

So...yeah. its all good.

Thanks guys!

2008-05-24T22:50:00.000+08:00

2008-05-24T11:39:00.000+08:00

LISTEN UP PEOPLE
THERE'S A GIG COMING UP
organized by mua friend
TO RAISE FUNDS FOR THE CHINA EARTHQUAKE VICTIMS
Come and support!

Date: 6th June 2008
Venue: Queensbay open air carpark
Time: 6pm-12am
Ticket price: RM10

I think the tickets are super cheap and if you can get loads of people to support it'll help bigtime

Anyone interested, email/msg me/write on my cbox and I'll get you the hook up

2008-05-21T20:49:00.000+08:00

Malaysian Islamic group condemns 'sexy' school uniforms
A Malaysian Islamic group on Wednesday condemned the uniform worn by girls at government schools, saying it encouraged rape and pre-marital sex.
"The white blouse is too transparent for girls and it becomes a source of attraction," National Islamic Students Association of Malaysia vice-president Munirah Bahari said in a statement.
"It becomes a distraction to men, who are drawn to it, whether or not they like looking at it," she said, calling for a review of uniform policy so that it did not violate Islamic ideals.
In multicultural Malaysia, home to majority-Muslim Malays as well as ethnic Chinese and Indians, female students at government schools have a choice of wearing a white blouse with a knee-length skirt or pinafore.
They may also wear a "baju kurung" which is a traditional long top and skirt, and a headscarf is optional for Malay students.
Munirah said that "covering up" according to Islamic precepts was important to fend off social ills including "rape, sexual harassment and even premarital sex which involve schoolgirls in their teens."
"All this leads to babies born out of wedlock and to an extent, even prostitution," she said.
"Decent clothes which are not revealing can prevent and protect women from any untoward situations," she said, suggesting that girls wear a blouse of a different colour or with an undergarment.
However, the girls themselves also came in for criticism, with the association saying some used the white blouse to lure men.
"This is the source of the problem, where we can see that schoolgirls themselves are capable of using this to attract men to them," Munirah said.
"This could see them getting molested, having pre-marital sex and all sorts of things."

Now...isn't that just stupid. these people think a BAJU KURUNG is sexy. Why don't they just blame all the horny men out there instead of blaming the baju kurung. And may i point out its not a SEXY CATHOLIC SCHOOL GIRL OUTFIT for Christ sake!
And most rape cases and sex outta wedlock, DOESN'T OCCUR IN A UNIFORM. == ~~You really think someone is about to screw someone else wearing a LONG COVERED WHITE TOP WITH A LONG BLUE SKIRT.~~

"Rip my kurung off. yes, the skirt, the long one till my feet. Yes. YES. "
"Lets fuck after school in my uniform, its so practical, we can do it anywhere"
"Aren't you so drawn to my see through white top which many of us cover with a long tudung. It's a turn on right. I know"

==
gosh, they're dumb. I blame all the horny malay men. Most of these acts of incest is done my MUSLIM MEN. so, i think, until they can stop the men from being horny, shut up about the uniform. geez. STUPID.
Tell me, are school girls really that horny? Do u think they wanna get fucked by a 40 year old fat guy?? ==
And if it is SOOO sexy(baju kurung...sexy == ) why didn't they speak out before? Why now? I'm sure it was as "sexy" as it was last time right...not "sexier"

2008-05-19T10:53:00.001+08:00

Animal Cruelty.
I really don't understand why people do it?
What's the point of making a poor innocent animal suffer for your cruel pressure???
I have been a strong environmentalist and animal activist. I believe that every animal deserves to have their life they way that they want to live it, not locked up in a cage. You may love the animals that you've taken from the wild, taken from their home, taken from their families, but...ever thought about how they felt?
I personally feel wrong about caging a bird, no matter how big the cage is or chaining the birds foot so that it can't fly away. I go to this pet shop, or I used to go to this pet shop when my hamster was alive...and they have had this poor parrot sitting in the cage doing nothing because no one has wanted to buy him. The cage isn't big enough for it to fly, spread its wings, yes, but fly? no.
I support the SPCA and PETA and I think what they're doing is absolutely brilliant. Even when I was a little kid, I've always helped the voices and I've always wanted to be the voice for the voiceless. Animals may not be able to speak English, German, french or what not, but they can feel pain and love and sadness just as we do, if u cut them, they bleed-just like us...so, why should they be treated differently? I am totally against animal testing and cruelty of any kind and it's very sad knowing that DAILY millions of people buy products that are tested on animals without knowing.Doing this not only supports those companies but also enables them to get the funding for these cruel acts.
I want and one day I will help all these poor creatures. I've always wanted to do veterinary and I WILL. Helping poor animals will be a pleasure.
Recently I read at Peta's website about the skinning of animal fur, when these poor creatures are still ALIVE. Isn't that just horrible?
this is the article from Peta:
When undercover investigators made their way onto Chinese fur farms recently, they found that many animals are still alive and struggling desperately when workers flip them onto their backs or hang them up by their legs or tails to skin them. When workers on these farms begin to cut the skin and fur from an animal's leg, the free limbs kick and writhe. Workers stomp on the necks and heads of animals who struggle too hard to allow a clean cut.
When the fur is finally peeled off over the animals' heads, their naked, bloody bodies are thrown onto a pile of those who have gone before them. Some are still alive, breathing in ragged gasps and blinking slowly. Some of the animals' hearts are still beating five to 10 minutes after they are skinned. One investigator recorded a skinned raccoon dog on the heap of carcasses who had enough strength to lift his bloodied head and stare into the camera.

Pls visit Peta to show your support In curbing this.

If people in China are doing such crude acts, maybe they deserve to die. Maybe the natural disaster there is a sign...but no one seems to see it.

Stop animal testing
Stop the cruelty
Stop the pain.

2008-05-16T23:51:00.000+08:00

1. Do you eat a lot of fast food?
I do. Only for one reason...It's Fast and it's Food.

2. Besides your mouth, where is your favorite spot to get kissed?
that's for me to know ;)

3. Were you happy when you woke up today?
No, I was like...Sleep deprived. I need sleep. SLEEEP.

4. Have you ever streaked?
Define streaked?

5. Are you an understanding person?
Most of the time.

6. What was the last movie you saw in theaters?
IRON MAN

7. Did you pray before you went to bed last night?
I always pray before I sleep

8. What did you last get upset about?
Sejarah. Not being able to do paper 2

9. Do you eat candy on a daily basis?
Yes. Chocolate is in m blood.

10. Does it make you happy to get letters in the mail?
Lol. If it means that i;ve won something, YES :D

11. What are you looking forward to this summer?
GURRLLL, its always summer here. LOL. So, yes, i look forward to everyday.

12. Who was the last person you ate with?
FAMILY <3

13. Do raisins belong in cookies?
If they're raisin cookies, yes. If it's a cornflake cookie and there's an outta place raisin, thn no.

14. What's your screen name?
Honey

15. Walking into a party, what's the first thing you notice?
FOOD. sorry man, I love food-can't help it.

16. Are you currently taking a science class in school?
Yes, 3 infact.

17. You've just won a free vacation to either South America or North Korea?
SOUTH AMERICA. Who wanna go see more chinese-looking people. I see enuff of them in Penang.

18. Kiss on the first date?
Depends who i'm kissing /whoo

19. Would you rather have chicken or steak?
Chicken :D It's the only thing I eat. Good ol' chicken.

20. What's one thing you've learned?
That I can do BM :D

21. Who was the last person you took a picture of?
Me and My sis together in the gurney TOILET

22. Would you ever donate blood?
Depends...maybe...sure.

23. How many snack machines are in your school?
I don't even think we have a snack machine man.

24. Have you ever felt replaced?
No, I always replace people.

25. Are there deerheads covering any walls in your house?
NO! EWW! GROSE! Do u want me to hang your head up there for asking such a stoopid question.

26. Do you believe in karma?
Yes, what goes around, comes around, what goes up must come down.

26. Have you ever been asked out?
YeH.

27. Are you good at telling jokes?
Yes, Have u heard the one about the cucumber that walks into a bar. LOL.

28. Do you wish you had smaller feet?
Nope. I like em just fine. sometimes I wish I had bigger feet...thn I could be famous...Big foot :P

29. Have you ever had a best friend who was of the opposite sex?
YEA

30. When ordering sushi, what do you get?
I hate sushi. GROOOSEEEE

31. How many of your friends have seen you naked?
None. Am i supposed to?

32. Do you write in cursive or in print?
I write neatly...and my print fonts are neat and uncursive-ish...so...

33. What were you doing at 10 am?
I was doing Math paper 2

34. Are you different now than you were six months ago?
I am more responsible.

35. What was the last beverage you spilled on yourself?
Nothing. I dont spill. I aint 5 ==

This was tagged to me by natasha

I tag this to
May
Lisa
Ivan
Alex Khoo

2008-05-16T15:25:00.000+08:00

I need to rant about some moron you keeps msging me-SOMEONE I DONT KNOW.

The number is: +60165147275
[please feel free to prank call at anytime]
This idiotic person things I am dumb or something and msgs every few weeks saying
"are u Hanisha"
Now, people who are close to me know that I hate my name being misspelled! and this person has done it MORE THAN ONCE!
I was sooo pissed. So, I shall type in chronology what happened.

Moron:
"Hi r u hanisha"
every time its the same thing

GORGEOUS Me:
"Omg. Go get a life and learn to spell right. Goodbye"seriously, do u think I'm stupid to not realize its you!

Moron:
"Than who are you"
Note: Than is only used for comparisons.
Anyways, this bugger is the one that's msging me and MORON ACTUALLY DARE ASK ME WHO AM I! == the nerve of some people

GORGEOUS Me:
"I have no idea who you are aand apparently you don't know who I am either. So...stop bothering me.:" I was losing my patience at this point. Someone once got my number and asked me are u a girl which I replied no. And he stopped msging me. LOL. I wanted to do the same for this ass but he msged few months back and I replied "yeah, who's this" and he refused to tell me who he/she/it is/was. so, I dont entertain ppl like this ~~[gosh, i sound mean]~~

MORON:
"Y r u so x c"
Ok, it's obvious from this persons lack of grammar skills that they don't exactly have a high IQ. or to put it bluntly, STUPID. So, I just got pissed. and It triggered the Bitch. I have been patient for so long wei...I CANNOT TAKE IT ANYMORE

GORGEOUS but bitchy ME:
"Two Words. Fuck off. Read it, memorize it and always keep it in your mind if you ever think of msging me :)"

MORON:
"N u fuck ur self til u die"Wow, When I read that msg I was just shocked. not because it was rude, because it was the LAMEST COMEBACK EVER. Well, actually the lamest was Korsh
Korsh said"go to school, you school girl"
I felt like saying "try to educate yourself high school failure" but i didn't.
anyways, thn my sister pointed out that MORON msged you first and moron wants you to go die now? what the hell. Some people, swear without making sense. I betcha MORON doesn't even know what the meaning of fuck is.

Another unknown number:+0174081228
[again, feel free to prank call]
Me not getting it was actually sheer luck. I came home after exams plopped on my sofa and was dead to the world. I came up and got 8 miss calls from this feller. and a msg.

Msg from Hotlink Moron:
"HI.. can I get knw u? Anyway whats ur name...?"whn someone msgs me without a GET TO KNOW YOU but a GET KNOW YOU I know its a dumb fuck again. seriously, how they're getting my number still remains a mystery.

NOTE TO PEOPLE I KNOW:
I WILL CHANGE MY NUMBER SOON AND I WON'T GIVE IT TO MANY PEOPLE! IF YOU ARE GIVING MY NUMBER OUT WITHOUT ME KNOWING I WILL DO TERRIBLE AND UNTHINKABLE THINGS TO YOU. THIS IS A SERIOUS WARNING.

2008-05-16T14:06:00.000+08:00

Sejarah Kills. Say no to sejarah. Tak nak!

Phew! Thank god it's Friday!

ONE WEEK OVER and ONE WEEK LEFT TO GO (well, to be precise, four days over and four more days to go)

Tuesday

Chemistry paper 1

Chemistry Paper 2

and chemistry paper 3

Chemistry is seriously VERY confusing

Paper one and three weren't too bad but paper two was HORRIBLE. and conveniently it carries the most marks ==

So, If i get 50 for chemistry I'll be overjoyed...Talk about aiming low. well, this means only one thing, ive gotta study more. Yes, I neglected chemistry for this exam...So...last minute-ing - not a good idea ==

Wednesday

BM paper 1

BM paper 2

Sejarah paper 1

BM paper one and two were ok. Being a person who has never really scored in BM, being able to answer and actually spot mistakes and stuff its just such a confidence booster.

teacher actually scared me that day...[note: this is a perasan moment]

"Haneesha I want to ask you, why you go and write you novel like that?"

at this point my heart sank

"Uhrm, why? Did I do it wrongly?"

"Nono, answer me, why u write like that?"

omg. I lost 15 marks for novel essay. FIFTEEN MARKS.

"uhr, is there any other way to write it?"

"nono, you wrote the best in the class!"

OMG! I WROTE THE BEST NOVEL IN CLASS. OMFGOMFGOMFG.

I was walking on sunshine that day...gosh...It felt so good that my hard work paid off :)

I got 84 for bm btw. A1 BABEH

Sejarah was ok, I was kinda bummed...I dont think I read enuff :\

Thursday

English 1

English 2

Sejarah 2

English one and two were good. again, i wrote alot about the novel part. About Juannnaaaaaa. lol. I knew stuff man! Gotttaaa love the english man...But i must say im not so confident in spelling...i've become dependant on spell check. damn. I blame kinder garden.

Sejarah two...gosh...I am sooo disappointed. ~~I felt like I knew NOTHING~~. I worked hard for it but all my hard work became mush in my brain and it was a

BRAIN MALFUNCTION! BRAIN MALFUNCTION! ABORT! ABORT! THIS BRAIN WILL TERMINATE IN 5, 4, 3, 2, 1. boom
I tried to write alot for my sejarah essay, but I think I screwed up. I listed not all the points about masyarakat jahiliah :( ~~I dowannna loose 15 marks!~~
My aim for sejarah was to get 80...but...I doubt I can...if i get 70[which was my aim for BM] i guess it'll balance out.

Friday

Math 1

Math 2

Economics 1

Math was like ok I guess. I still need more practice. A bit rusty. Paper one was ok, Paper two a little bit tougher than I imagined it to be. But hopefully *crosses fingers and toes* I'll get an A.

Since I ain't taking economics for my SPM, I CAN GO HOME EARLY. I must say, Sri Pinang is relly awesome in that sense, they're not overly strict like some schools *cough*cls*cough* and their rules are reasonable. So I got the green slip [a green slip is like this permission slip that enables you to leave school] from Ivan's STASH (which is only supposed to be for emergency use :P ) and went to get Mr. Heah to sign it before Mr. Siaw does. I feel that Mr.Siaw has been a bit on the edge these few days...as if he's PMS-ing. Idk man...kinda scared of him. So, I tot it'd be a better idea to get Mr. Heah to sign first-~~the HIGHER authority~~... so me afiq and ivan walked around for a bit looking for Mr. Heah and decided lets just go see the principal. I was a bit sceptical about seeing her la, I mean, she IS the principal. Scared. LOL. [note:CLS has instilled fear in me...so...meeting teachers who are nice for a change is a read shocker] and she was pleasant and Mr Heah said we'd have to get Mr. Siaw to sign first. Afiq and Ivan gave me their green slips and I had to face the wizaarddd :

"Good afternoon Mr. Siaw, Mr Heah said since we're not talking economics we can leave school earlier"

lol. i was proud of myself-very smooth and it explained everything. Mr Siaw didnt even need to ask furthur. I realize when I want something or when I'm talking to teachers, I use my sweet/innocent school girl voice-gets em everytime [or maybe I'm jsut being perasan and they're just nice...nawh, I;m sticking to the perasan one] Got em sign and left schoool for...GURNEY with mom obviously.

We went there to collect our iron man tickets , and eat lunch, I ATE RICE-my braces dont hurt anymore. whoppie. food-watch out, Honey's teeth are back in biznez!

I came home and here I am now, blogging instead of sleeping. LOL.

2008-05-14T16:00:00.000+08:00

Ok, today was BM and Sejarah paper one.
I have to admit, the night before I couldnt study...not because I didnt wanna, just coz, I was studying BM. Yes, I neglected by sejarah-so u can imagine how my sejarah was. It was 50-50. I so have to make up for it for paper two tomorrow. thankfully there's paper two. love the paper two. and tomorrow there's english so inotherwords, tonight is just sejarah ALL THE WAY BABEH!

I helped Nic and Alex out with BM and Mabel photocopied my HARD WORK OF NOTES WHICH I DID BBY MYSELF. If she gets higher in novel for me for the exam, i'd be sad wei!
Ivan and I make such good exam buddies *gives a you-know-what-Im-saying-eivanne look*

And I'm eating baby foood!
Rusk cookies are DEEEELLLIICCIOUSS!
I'm so gonna eat them on a regular basis.
Well, Braces still hurt, baby food is good, so I guess at the moment everything is good.

I'm watching and indian show now and the lady cooking is sooo freaking adorabale!

"Hoowe to tell-e if the prawins are-e coooked. They vill bekom hard and rvound"

LOL!

2008-05-13T15:51:00.000+08:00

Tuesday
Exams
Chemistry
is
a
BEEYOTCH

and my braces hurt like hell :(

2008-05-12T16:35:00.000+08:00

I have got braces...AGAIN

Just on my lower jaw
the 6 front teeth
for 3 months

Thn it's gone forever!

So, basically im the only person in the entire universe who has had braces TWICE

whatthafark

2008-05-06T21:52:00.000+08:00

I sometimes wish God would come to earth and say

"NO NO THIS IS NOT WHAT I MEANT"

2008-05-06T20:54:00.000+08:00

Look at this picture. take a minute to take it all in. Ok, What do you see?

Do you see:-

1. Two poor people digging for food?

2. two Gross people beyond reason

3. Two environmentally aware people

The answer is 3. I see these people by my apartment everyday going to the trash and separating out plastic from paper and glass from polyester. I always see him, at least once a week! And it got me thinking, wow-he's such a good person. If only people in this world were more like him. I mean we're actually killing ourselves little by little every single day. Isn't that scary? in 50 years we would've damaged the earth so badly that it would be irreversible. When I said be more like him, I don't exactly mean go through other peoples trash to separate it-I myself wouldn't be able to do that, bug phobia-very horrible bug phobia. I stress on very.

I watched the inconvenient truth, US is one of the few countries which are the main contributors to this. They're doing their best to stop it now-or so I hope. I hoped that they're all going "oh shit"-if u catch my drift.

I was reading Pn. Shobhana's blog that day and she had this post about how the world has changed. when she was a kid she could run around and not worry about being raped, killed, held for ransom. and it's actually kind of sad. I don't want my kids ~~(if i ever get married. I think I'll be single with a lot of cats, living on the other side of the street and scaring children into thinking I'm a witch)~~ to grow up in such a world. I don't want to see the world to crumble as it is now.
Have people become so self-obsessed that they have forgotten about others except themselves? Have people become so materialistic?
It's so sad that everyday someone is contributing to it in one way or another. Some may even laugh at my blog and forget its seriousness. Imagine i 50 years, no snow, no polar bears, probably another ice age. you see water in the ocean flows in such a way that it is cooled and heated cooled and heated bla bla bla and if the ice were to melt it might cause the heated water to cool-hence causing it to freeze. When it's frozen, how will the water move? Water is such that it needs to find its own level. And if every single year the water rises 1cm (which it was mind you-i think its more now) in a few years, Penang wouldn't exist. Doesn't that scare you? We right essays in class about this, we learn about topics we hear of it but WHY AREN't WE DOING ANYTHING?

So people-ANYONE who is reading my blog now please do these following things that I got from climatechange's website.

1. clean and replace filters in the air conditioner -by practicing this simple act you can get more out of your Air conditioner and save up to 350 POUNDS of carbon dioxide yearly.

2.Replace incandescent light bulbs with a compact fluorescent light bulb- you use 60% less energy. Less energy= better for environment

3. Buy energy star products

4. Use less hot water-seriously people! Hot water releases carbon dioxide. You can save up to 350 pounds of carbon dioxide by doing so. or if you're really a hot-water-addict install a low flow shower head.

5.Turn off electrical devices when you're not using them - this is directed to Keshav. STOP LEAVING YOUR COMPUTER ON! every single electrical device that u use releases greenhouse gases. By just turning of something LIKE A COMPUTER you can save THOUSANDS of pounds of carbon dioxide yearly. THOUSANDS.

6. Unplug devices when not using them- even though you're not using the devices, anything plugged in still uses energy, just lower. and that spews 18 million of carbon dioxide yearly.

7.RECYCLE- all u have to do is simple. When you use something that can be recycled put it aside from your regular trash, and visit a recycling centre (I'm yet to find one. when i do ill add it up)

8. Buy recycled products- It uses up to 60%-70% LESS energy than regular products

9. Plant a tree- I'm seriously gonna start doing it when I find the time. Even if you plant a tree on your birthday you can make a difference. ONE TREE.

10. Switch to green power- Ok, Malaysia uses dams and stuff to generate electricity so, were good. (i researched)

11.Buy locally grown products- it reduces transport energy. So, Australian grapes and all that-GOTTA GO.

12buy fresh products instead of frozen- frozen products uses 10 times MORE energy. Frozen roti cannai and all GOTTA GO.

13.Stop using polystyrene.-Seriously, I wish Malaysia would just ban it like Indonesia! I mean, If Indon can do it why can't we? Esp for school camps. School camps always pack food in poly. carries. if all the schools in Malaysia stopped it'll make a big difference. If McDonalds stopped, i think the whole issue would be solved. seriously. STOP MC DONALDS STOP GODDAMNIT!

Isn't our government supposed to do something about these issues? I want Cleaner beaches-cant we have a rule for that? I want a change. I want a better future! Instead, they re calling each other names in Parliament-MATURE. ~~(i think i have more brains than the whole cabinet put together)~~ I wish I had one week to be the Prime Minister of Malaysia. I would do so much to stop this nonsense.

So i please I BEG everyone, do something about it :(

PLEASE :(

Not for me, for this world. and if not for the world- for me ? :D

Spread the word to everyone.

On a happier note:

And happy birthday gramma :D

2008-05-05T16:33:00.000+08:00

Woahness!
FINALLY
MONDAY IS OVER! or soon to be anyway
I somehow find Mondays very long! It's like the school day refuses to end-whatthafark
LOL-At least Mr. Siaw tot me Math-form 4. I hope to the number 23 *read on* that I'll do excellently for my mid year. oh gosh mid year-NERVVVOUUSS WAY. My intestines feel like jellowwww :D

Anyways, I watched this movie yesterday, The number 23.
For those who have wacthed
The eternal sunshine of the spotless mind and
the butterfly effect

would definately enjoy it.
It's basically how the world revolves around the number 23.

I was doing research and the things that link to the number twenty three are pretty freaky.

1. 2/3 is 0.666
666 is the sign of the devil

2. Only 23 people allowed in a AOL chatroom.

3. Airplane disaster
230 people died on TWA Flight 800.

4. The letter W
W is the 23 letter of this alphabet. The symbol for that letter is two points down and three points up.

5. Shakespeare was born on April 23, 1564 and died on April 23, 1616

6. The first song on Side A of the Beatles first Album took 23 takes to record

7. The band U2. U is the 21st letter in the alphabet added to the number two gives you 23.

8. On the evening of March 23, 1997 in the US, not only was the comet Hale-Bopp clearly visible, but there was also a lunar eclipse. Mars was also at its closest distance to Earth.

9. The number of atoms of an element in one mole (cf. Atomic Weight) is 6.21x10²³

10. Most URLs for the web contain 2 "/"s and 3 W's

11. December 23, 2012
The date the Mayans believed the world will end. Hence why they were really obsessed with time and it's observance. 2+1+2 is 5, and what is 5? 2+3

12. John Dillinger robbed 26 banks, but only 23 for money.

13. In the movieDie Hard III the train derails in subway station 23

14. Supposedly there are 2,300 stones comprising the Great Pyramid

15. There are 23 vitamins and minerals in a Centrum Silver tablet

16. The number of joints in the human arm is 23

17. Marilyn Monroe's former address is 12305 Helena Drive. and she DIED

18. The name of the Uranium isotope used in bombs is U235

19. Nissan is a brand of Japanese cars. In Japanese, "ni" is 2, and "san" is 3. So Nissan would be 23

20. July 23
More reported UFO sightings on this day than any other day of the year. This is the flapday of the year

So you can Imagine, i spent the day in school trying to see 23 and its connection with random people :)

Khanum is 23 and it's my surname
Nic's name had 230, which is 5 which is 2+3
Cze Yang's name was 46. 46/2 is 23
Alex's name was 23 too!
Lin Kai's was 96, 96/3 is 32. the reverse of 32 is 23
Johnny's name and Melvin's name had decimals so it was 23.blah blah
Dont know if that counts
I did Ivan's and I got 8 ==
Everyone was making fun of me!
Thinking if was nonsense ~~(or even that I'm Mad)~~

"Haneesha, why isn't Merdeka on August 23rd 1923?"
==

UNTIL Chee Chiang pointed out that 2 to the power of 3 is 8

and 2 to the power of 3 is 23.
NYEH

Even Nav just told me his house number 23
and the first two digits on his moms car number plate is 23
His tuition teachers grandfather passed away on the 23rd

It's true! I'm gonna crack this number 23 code one day. And when I do, be afraid, be very afraid.

Till thn, I recommend EVERYONE to watch the number 23-brilliant!

p/s: Finally took pics of my hottt laptop! ~~I know you're jealous. ;)~~

and yes, the chairs at my dining table are red and black

World Music Fest

2008-05-04T03:34:00.000+08:00

My fridays were pretty much normal. I really wanted to go school I REALLLY DID. I wanted to go for add math (and the curse for 7 generations that Wooi Nian put on me if I didn't go to school on friday...holy shit...im cursed) but sadly I had this swollen gum. PITY ME. at first I tot, maybe it's because of the weather and my water intake, so I drank more water. That did not help at all-infact it just caused more bathroom breaks. I went to a normal doctor and he told me to see a dentist. So I went tot see my dentist, Dr. Tan. I dont know why people are afraid of doctors. I really have no problem going to see one. Infact, doctors are friends, not food. (wtf...)

I susppected maybe it was because I have a wisdom tooth. I AM full of wisdom. eh. eh. And...IT WAS. The top tooth was biting into my lowerjaw where the wisdom tooth is and hence causing an ULSEERRRR. jeng jeng jeng. so he trimmed my tooth, the end. IM ALLL BETTER NOW.

After the whole dentist episode, I went for the

WORLD MUSIC FEST

and may I just say it was the BOOMMMBB.

People who went, me, sis, faris, mahesh, nazim, amin and some of my sisters classmates which I'm not sure how to spell their names so...yeah :D

There were altogether 6 performances.

Our line up was

1.Dya Singh (Australia/Penang)

2. Bafta Tojours (USA)

3.Kumpulan Dendang Anak (Terengganu)

4.Mono Blanco (Mexico)

5.Afenginn (Denmark)

6. Salem Tradition (reunion Islands)

First there was:

1. Dya Singh

DAMNNNN, he was good. He had a blend of punjabi music with the bongos and stuff and his two daughters were singing and stuff and he had white guys playing guitars and the dickeridoo? or however u spell it. that looonnnggg thing that makes the eouweeuoweueowueowuweoeuwoe sound. Somehow, it made the hairs on my hand (oops, I just waxed, no hair) Stand (if i had any).

2. It was supposed to be the Usa group but they were stranded in an airport so ireland swapped places with them.

The irish music was so leprehaun ish!

I was like ...."I'm in ireland, lads"

LOL

3.Kumpulan Dendang Anak

ok, when they were getting on stage and the lights were dimmed, they all looked like mini ju-onns.

I couldnt really see much, everyone was hogging the stage area and I stood up. nothing much was going on. I sat back on the ground and appreciated the music. Lol. In otherwords, being blur. :D It was good, abt puteri gunung ledang :D

4. Mono Blanco

Oh god, this was never ending man. It was the same kind of mexican music. I was like-GOD TAKE ME. It was nice, no doubt, but after 20 minutes of listening to the same kind of music(it was for an hour plus mind you). So, I did other activites and shouted randomly "nachos" "burrito" "ayekaramba" "ariba ariba" LOL!

5. Afenginn

They were gooooood! I really enjoyed their peformance! really woke me up!
LOVEEE THEM! and all of them were cute. not hot cute but really CUTE!
They made the music fast than slow fast again and we had to clap along. and this guy on the guitar went fasstt thn slow thn fast! awesomeness

6. Salem Tradition

Woah, their voices and peformance was the best for the night! as the saying goes, save the best for last. It was brilliant! they were happy, they danced, they singed, they swapped instruments and played, they interacted with the audience a whole lot. reallly freakkinnn awesome.

I had an awesome time there. I really wish I could go for it again!

I can't wait for next years :D

And that area where the show was had was sooo amazing. greenery surrounding you.

The earth, trees, a big stage with lighting effects and 3 huge-ass speakers but somehow calm at the same time.

Finally

2008-05-01T20:13:00.000+08:00

HAPPY LABOURS DAY

After years of begging and practically rolling on the floor squirming for it- I finally now have a laptop. my own. MINE. ALLL MINE. no more sharing.
I got the Dell inspiron 1525 in red.
other than that my life has been pretty much the same.

School had some retarded tabung haji field trip that day, I COULDN'T go coz I was absent and didn't get some permission nonsense. Not like I wanted to anyway. Do you really think I'm gonna waste my time at some lame-ass thing. Nah uh. So i stayed in school. I was the only form 5 in school at that time. It didn't feel really different-i was kinda shocked time passed by so quickly in the library. ah, the library. I was there doing my work when the library teacher, Shobhana was there. TEACHER-STUDENT BONDING :P
I must say, she is one cool teacher (no sarcasm) She showed me her blog weii!
I mean, shes hot! if u get what i mean.

Well, the guys came back and we had add math. I SWEAR MR SIAW SOUNDS LIKE A WIZARD!
Then we had economics. I kinda felt bad for Shamala. I mean, Alex was practically shouting at her. you could see it in her eyes how much she despised us. I felt bad. Really bad. I mean, i cant imagine, teaching a class like mine. If alex would've don't that in CLS, he would've gotten into deep shit. I know she isn't the best or nicest person around-but sometimes we gotta be the bigger person. Especially when dealing with ppl older than us. And she was sick. She tried teaching but no one was paying attention. I can predict what's gonna happen for mid term, the class is gonna get their results and blame her for not teaching, when in reality, they weren't listening. haish. even though I'm not taking economics for SPM, I paid attention that day. gosh. Whats happening to me...I'm suddenly nice to...TEACHERS :
holy-mother-of-Jesus-on-toast.

The rest of my life is pretty normal.

I hope i can go get my brows done tomorrow. I think if i don't do it soon, by June i will have a UNI BROW*AHHH* exaggeration :P
uni brows are bad man. reallly. they're like

"hey whats that on your forehead man?"
"what?"
"THAT"
"oh, that's just my brows"
":"

jeng jeng jeng
*horror music*

Random test post

2007-11-06T03:23:00.000+08:00

new blog, test test

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